Don't think the wife and I will make it

[marleen]

It's so sad you have to live through this Melody. I really hope you will find the strength to deal with it. (I'm in a marriage myself that has turned into friendship-only, and the feeling I have for the future looks very similar to what you are experiencing now)

About your son and bullying, I tend to disagree you need to move away during RLE. My experience with two boys at school (and I'm the one bringing them and picking them up most of the time) is very different. The school has a big role to play here, by not tolerating any bullying. A child psychologist also told me that when you react to bullying immediately, and talk to the bully, this kind of behaviour would stop within a few weeks. Luckily my boys have not yet experienced any bullying so far.

Take care!

[barbie]

I like your wife's observation Barbie.  Freak may be overkill and a bit harsh a term to many but in this case I understand and appreciate the point of view.  Something is better than nothing in may ways. 

-mS

Thanks mS for your comments on my post. I have been a little bit busy doing my routine jobs here since  the weekend. Attending some conferences and writing some research proposals. Oh. I submiited my research proposal just ago, and am taking some rest.

Suprisingly or not, I observed that my transsexualism is not an issue any more.

I visited my previous work place while wearing hot pants as it was unusually warm. Some women said like "I heard that you moved for a new job, but you are still here. Oh. You are wearing hot pants! How are you?" No woman at my previous work place wears hot pants during their working hours. I repliked like "I am a visitor today!"  Most of them seem to take my crossdressing as a matter of course.

At home when I was just about to leave for the airport, my little daughter suddenly came back home from her preschool with her mom. She immediately noticed my wearing bras, and tried to touch my chest several times. I ran away in the room. She is so much curious... She also mentioned my wearing lip gross. She said like "My dad looks like a woman. I wish that my dad becomes my mom as I want to wear lipstick..." My wife just smiles at my wearing a women's top.

After I arrived here, I phoned my home. All chats with my daughter and wife are just about everyday affairs. My daughter complained that her brother was playing too much computer game, not allowing her to watch an animation movie through the computer monitor. I warned my son that I will bring the computer to my house in the next time when I stop there. But my sons seem to know that actually I will never do that. My eldest son seems to know everything about my transsexualism, although he seldom says about it. His teachers used to say that he likes me better than my wife, because I understand him better. But, when I ask him whether he can live with me, he does not reply. I guess my wife is still better for him to live with. Anyway I guess I will get a new house, and my family will come here next year. For a while, I try to visit my home to see my family at least once per two weeks.

Anyway, whatever I wear, my sons and daughter seem to believe that I am a nice dad.

Barbie~~