Society is a cruel place for fat people, since I was losing weight and was looking good about 4 weeks ago, made a tons of threads about people acting bizarre around me. Then I gained like 7 legit lbs, I am pretty sure, and my face looks so round right now. But I was like walking on air at that time, thinking "oh what will happened today... will more people look at me? I must be so hot!" Stupid me, binging everyday thinking, "I am not going to gained this", then bam it all exploded on me, and backfired. People are like ignoring me now, and nobody wants to chat with me. It's tragic!
Even the guys who were like trying to chat with me all the time, seemed to not noticed me anymore (they are straight but still? I liked it). I had this good waist at that time, now it seems blah. I was still the same person, but omg, looks shouldn't matter this much.
I also decreased my SPIRO intake out of fear of growing breasts drastically... but I am not sure if that has anything to do with it? Or does it? DO YOU THINK? But I did this last week, and went a few days off it... which is around when I been looking like complete crap. But it was such a slow thing, but yet then it all came together like a trainwreck.
To hell with this! I am going to starve for 20 days, and I will lose 10 pounds like that. It will be tough, but I am depressed how people are just ignoring me. I realized, it's so much worst being thought of attractive for one month then losing it!
October 26, I'll look like whatever I looked like last month.
