Hi, I'm daydreamer (Or B. Whatever you want to call me.). I'm young and I've been feeling somewhat confused about my gender status,but I feel I may be trans. As the title says, I'm horrible at doing introductions,so bare with me on this. Umm, I guess it goes back to my childhood,where I was an odd
kid.My parents considered me a tomboy,but I pushed it sometimes.I never felt like I fit into the "female" box,so it was weird for me. For one reason or another,things just seemed to fade out for me. I'm not sure if it's just because I repressed it for so long that it just came back to bite me in the rear;or something.I don't really know. But it's been driving me completely insane lately. Since mid-late summer, I've considered and planned on looking for a good therapist nearby; but I've been planning everything for at least two years into the future,since I have lots of things going on now. One being school,and I don't know how things will go for me if I transitioned during the school year. (I get crap from classmates as it is,so I don't want to end up getting more harassment for coming out) I'm not too concerned about work,since I have my cousin and co-workers that I know through her,to look out for me. Friends and other family,sort of. But I think it would be hypocritical for them to shun me. My family told me to keep a low profile when I came out to some people as bisexual,for my safety. And with some of my friends,them giving me problems would be hypocritical to me. (Only concerned about one friend. We're thick as theives,but he acts a tad bit homophobic sometimes. I'm not sure if he's transphobic as well,so it's going to suck.) Money is another problem. I'm barely pooling in enough for gas money,after I pay off car insurence and phone bills for the month.And ther's other money related troubles that I don't feel like going into. An lastly,I have an anxiety and depression issue. I know self-diagnosises are something to always go by,since they can be false. I've had extreme lows since late last year,and a few moments where I thought I'd act on them. I do know that if I don't really do something,then I'll just go more crazy. And I hope,that once I conquer this obsticle in my life--that I'll be happier than I was beforehand.
Sorry for the complete Donnie Downer intro, I'm pretty exausted and I'm having an off week.
