Ok, I'm a little interested in this. I'm pretty masculine and it seems like other lesbians see me as such. One said, "You're my new boyish partner in crime"...we're not dating or anything....It was pretty cool to be called "boyish" in a positive light. It's always been a negative thing in the past. In some strange way, I've always wished I'd been born male. Even when I was a kid before the age of 3 even. Like at the age of 3 my grandma bought me a dress and I threw it across the room. I remember when I was in potty training and I had one of those trainer toilets. I tried to pee standing up, but it went everywhere so I never did it again. I'm surprised stuff like STP's exists. I never saw one before until I watched Max on the L word. I have a pretty large chest and I've always hated it. I wish I was smaller so it wasn't that obvious I was a girl. Before puberty people called me "sir" and many asked if I was a boy or a girl. I was often teased because I wasn't feminine enough. I hated it at the time, but now...I like the attention I get when people treat me more like a guy. I've tried to be more feminine in the past with make-up and skirts and stuff, but it never stuck. I even dated a guy (my only boyfriend ever) and his family was insistent that I was more like a girl. They even bought me girl clothes. It sucked.
I'm not sure if I'd actually transition into anything because my family would flip, but the idea of having facial hair and a deeper voice...even being someone's boyfriend would be pretty awesome. It'd be cool to be able to go by the name Darrin instead of my birth name, which is Deanna. But then I'd have to get top surgery and go on T and stuff in order to do something like that. Which I don't know if I can do that or if I want to.
Anyway, I'm here to explore this whole thing and get some information.
