Ok so a bit of an introduction to Susan's Place, though I have been lurking for a while.
As most of us I have felt gender dysphoria all of my life and and like many of us I waited, suppressed and did nothing about it for all of my life. So now at 38 after going through a major withdrawal I am ready to come back to face my true self. I originally started the first steps on my journey when I was 32. I started seeing a gender therapist and had come out to my wife. Then my wife got pregnant and the prospects of fatherhood and family made me hide away all my feelings out of fear of losing everything. Now that I am divorcing and my inner woman is back screaming to break the chains I have bound her in. I am praying for the strength to go through with this this time. To not let fear force me into a half-lived life.
So since my separation from my wife the things I have done:
1. I came out to my mother about a month ago. She is not happy about it. She fears I am going to ruin my life and live alone and become unemployable. She also loves to play on the fears of how this will affect my two daughters.
2. I am starting my first session of laser beard removal this Saturday.
3. Going to call my gender therapist that I haven't seen in 6 years and make an appointment today.
4. Just bought a whole bunch of makeup and started practicing. (I may post pics later, maybe)
So I'm trying to stay positive and since I'm finally doing something real to progress towards transition rather than just thinking about it; I thought I would share.
Thanks for listening,
Sadie
