Hi my friend told me to come here because I've been talking to her and worrying a lot about various things
. I'm 25 and I live in NW England and recently decided to admit to my self I am transgender, genderqueer, some thing
.
I have wished I was a girl ever since I was 10 or so but carried on as normal and dressed while my family were not there. I fell in love with my girlfriend and pretty much stopped, although I did love girls clothes just was scared to wear them. We split up and I gradually felt more and more like a girl again and started speaking to a very nice lady from the US and got into thinking I should try and pursue my feelings more instead of hiding them.
I met some very nice transvestite friends and finally went out dressed to a queer club and really loved it
. I can't really class my self as any gender right now though. I don't get any pleasure from just dressing so I don't think I'm a CD person. I'm also not into girls things but did spend time with my mum learning cooking and had some girl hobbies in the past, if I was a girl I think I would be a tom boy like my mum
. After doing gender tests it always comes out I have both male and female personality, although recently I can't see my self being a boy 24/7 for much longer, it just makes my even more depressed thinking I might be stuck like this forever and happy thinking I might be able to be a 100% passable girl.
If there is anyone in the NW/North of England who has just started or been on Hrt for a while I'd love to chat and get some info on clinics, local trangender friendly phycologists etc.
Thank
Leanna
