A Visit in my Sleep - Hope

[Megan]

This morning I was sleeping, and it felt like I was awake in my bed since I was in the exact position of where I was, looking up at my fan. The sun was creeping through the window, so it just felt so real and then I awoken from the dream, but it was like I was in the same place still.

Anyways, in the dream, a being was pulling my private parts or felt like it, and he asked me in a eerie deep voice what I wanted to become. It felt like a demon upon me, but I did not look, so I replied, "I want to become a succubus, a beautiful succubus". Then I felt like it was transforming me, and I was scared in the dream, so I awoken.

Yep, so I guess there is someone watching out for me?? Even though I never thought of myself as a succubus, so bizarre as hell. Nah, it was just a dream, nothing more nothing less.

When I arrived at work today, my boss looked at me like she was transfixed upon my image, as if she felt a connection to me in a chemical/love type way. Then a girl, the prettiest girl in the store, begin speaking to me about weight issues of herself and college, in which she never does. Then, I had like three or four guys smiling at me. Bizarre bizarre day at work... and I liked it.

And I lose 7 pounds of weight since yesterday (190 to 183), so that made me happy too... mostly water weight I believe.

[Raven]

No that isn't weird at all. Dreams can hold messages in them, symbols if you will. I'm not very good at explaining these things, but to me it sounds like more than one thing may have occured to you. You might of had an OBE (out of body exp) for one, your subcoicous could have let you know that your on the right path, the demon may have been something entirely different, like maybe it was the gender assigned at birth trying to confuse you (I'm not sure if that is possible so don't take my word for it). This is something you may want write in a journal just in case it happens again an keep record and see if you see a pattern. And try looking up things like this and see if you find anything similar to your exp. Best way to look it up I believe would be things like OBE, dreams, spiritulity, ect.

[Meepit]

Sounds like sleep-paralysis to me . I've heard those can be extremely scary, people seeing ghostly ladies climbing up the sides of their bed from underneath and aliens and stuff. Creepy, hope it never happens to me, but I hear it's pretty common.

[Megan]

No that isn't weird at all. Dreams can hold messages in them, symbols if you will. I'm not very good at explaining these things, but to me it sounds like more than one thing may have occured to you. You might of had an OBE (out of body exp) for one, your subcoicous could have let you know that your on the right path, the demon may have been something entirely different, like maybe it was the gender assigned at birth trying to confuse you (I'm not sure if that is possible so don't take my word for it). This is something you may want write in a journal just in case it happens again an keep record and see if you see a pattern. And try looking up things like this and see if you find anything similar to your exp. Best way to look it up I believe would be things like OBE, dreams, spiritulity, ect.

Actually this dream (state) is unique to the others because I entered it like 4 or 5 times now in the past two months, but this time is unique that it had a voice in it. It was better than the movies, that's for sure. Since I could feel it like grabbing onto me, and giving me something.

The other ones were just intense fear, and still in my room. Intense, like I was frozen in fright for some reason and couldn't move.

It's so freaking cool though, so I really like that state of place.

[Megan]

Sounds like sleep-paralysis to me . I've heard those can be extremely scary, people seeing ghostly ladies climbing up the sides of their bed from underneath and aliens and stuff. Creepy, hope it never happens to me, but I hear it's pretty common.

That must be it! I just looked it up, and it described exactly what I felt like.

[Meepit]

Yeah sorry if that shoots down any of the spiritual qualities you may have wanted ( I'm not that spiritual or religious myself so that's not the approach I took). They can be freaky, but common. Apparently they run in the family so you might be able to ask your parents or siblings if they've experienced the same. They also usually happen during a big change or a change in scenery (like sleeping in a new house etc.). How are you dealing with them? Do you find them creepy? Cuz I'd be scared poop-less .

[Janet_Girl]

Two things concern me..

1) The voice in the dream.  You described it as a eerie deep voice.  Dark energy can manifest in voices.
2) Your request to become a succubus.  I hope you know what a succubus is.

From a spiritual view, this is very dark.  Don't "make a deal with the devil".

[Megan]

Two things concern me..

1) The voice in the dream.  You described it as a eerie deep voice.  Dark energy can manifest in voices.
2) Your request to become a succubus.  I hope you know what a succubus is.

From a spiritual view, this is very dark.  Don't "make a deal with the devil".

Yeah I know, but I am not that religious (but spiritual I am), so I do not take it that seriously.... for the most part. And I know, a succubus, of all things to say... I can understand why i would say that in my dreams... because it's like a combination of power, seduction, getting what you want from society... It's wicked too. But weird all the same, and dark crap that makes horror films horrifying. Just that it came to the wrong person, since I was like "I want to go back to whatever that was". since it felt like I was in some trance.

What would a devil want with me?

But still, I feel like something changed about me... how people see me. They look at me. The moment I walk into a setting, I get people's attention on me. Like they want to know me, intrigued by me, seduced by my presence in a strange way. They assumed things about me, like I am this "bad-rebel; drinking, smoking.... weirdo.... something is wrong" (and I am the complete opposite of all that)... then I get like smiles and good reactions from people once they get to know me. But people assumed the worse before the good. It's like a combination of ideas; it's like I am the opposite of good and evil to people. An enigma, that's what it is, because they cannot understand me.

But people just look at me, when I am walking by, and I do not look back at them so they would think I am not noticing their behaviors around me. But stop freaking staring at me, every time I walk by, lol it's annoying.

It began when I lost the weight, and when I began spiro... spiro is doing this effect on me to people. Since I never been looked at so much in my life.

I must come across as amazing to people... since I had three dudes just coming over to me to chat with me. One wanted to be in my presence, the other to talk to me, one followed me from upstairs to downstairs to my locker.

[Megan]

Yeah sorry if that shoots down any of the spiritual qualities you may have wanted ( I'm not that spiritual or religious myself so that's not the approach I took). They can be freaky, but common. Apparently they run in the family so you might be able to ask your parents or siblings if they've experienced the same. They also usually happen during a big change or a change in scenery (like sleeping in a new house etc.). How are you dealing with them? Do you find them creepy? Cuz I'd be scared poop-less .

I asked my mother and she said she had them a few times, BUT I didn't went into details about mine.

Anyways,

I feel like it was the right thing to enter me, since the man I had my first kissed with rejected me completely because I let his dog out... and I was like "wth, you're pissed at me because I left the gate open".

Then at work my manager was like treating me like I am stupid, and I dislike it. SO I asked him if the head boss was in, and he replied, "No I am, I am better anyways". So now I know how he feels about the head boss, as if he thinks he's so much better than her.

Whatever, I'll make sure she knows I feel sorry for dealing with a retarded boss in a indirect way.

I feel so much stronger than I ever thought I could be! I ->-bleeped-<-ing will rule my life starting tonight, I will be a succubus. I will never let anyone take control of me of my destiny. I will be powerful and supreme. OHH YAH!!!!

I'm so happy that this energy enter my soul, since now I am the darkest being that I even know! mUAHAHAha