I am thinking of old age, such as being the age of 35 and beyond (that is not old yet, but still it's not the age were your consider young-young anymore; it's like this is it... this is life for the rest of your days), and this is what I was thinking. The only aspect of me wanting to retain my male aspect isn't because I want to be male, but it's because I want to remain young looking (an illusion in my mind; that I can remain young looking past 30 on spiro). That will not happen, or else I'll end up looking like a modern day Paul McCarthy were my facial features are youthful but my skin shows all.
But then age we'll crept up on me, and when I am 35, I will want to be intelligently educated and somewhat financial wealthy. I do not need all the glam and riches of a celebrity, but a lover who loves me more than himself. Someone competent with myself. Then an image of sophisticated woman comes to mind, like smoking on a long cigar-object, sunglasses, hair up, black mini dress, looking outside her window seeing acres of lands.
But I do not want this wealth through sugar daddies or luck, but through my works. I want to impact this world somehow, not in a fame-type way, but in a way that will change people's mental's abilities.
It's something unusual for me to think about this, but I see education in my future (I was doubting on going on college that's why I spoke of such). I guess, I'll have to think some more on this, but I am going to go heavy on spiro again.
I'll think about this tomorrow.
