I find it very odd , how each person perceives the same thing differently. A funny thing happened to me. Two weeks ago I went with my wife shopping at our local mall. My wife and I went into Wet Seal , where she found two blouses that she liked and wanted to try on. We walked to the fitting room area where there was an attendant arranging clothes on a rack. There was a small waiting area in front of the fitting rooms. The fitting rooms were all private each having its own mirror and door. I quickly parked myself on a seat in the waiting room area. My wife took the first room closest to the waiting area . I could see her room clearly as well as most the other rooms. All the time , the attendant kept looking over at me. Mind you I am not presenting at female at this time. (I don't think that I am ready yet) . I do however wear my hair long and down .No makeup at all. I dress in mens clothes just a little more colorful the most. So my wife tries the first blouse on and opens the door to the fitting room, so that I could see her. (its only about six feet away) so I stand up and walk towards her , and the attendant turns around and nearly has a fit " we can't have men back here!" " there are women dressing here and they need their privacy! " I didn't want to cause a scene so I sat back in my seat. My wife stood in the door way I had to talk to her from where I was sitting. I really did not like that woman!!!
So here is the funny part. I was at Ross department store today. With my wife. I found a good deal on a couple of pair of mens skinny jeans. I wanted to try them on, so I headed for the fitting room. There was a lady attendant there that was handling both the mens and the womens fitting rooms, they were separate . She gave me a number and told me to go on in . So I headed for the mens fitting room. As I did , she spoke up and said "Oh no honey, this way" and she pointed to the womens fitting room. I smiled , turned around and went right in. You should have seen the grin on my face!!!!! This was the first time in a ladies fitting room, I made sure to stay as long as I could, the whole time smiling. I don't think I have stopped smiling since.
I have to try not to get too excited over this. I don't want to rush into things to quickly but this , to me is a very good sign.
( My cloud does have a silver lining. It's just a bit tarnished at the moment...... Nothing a little polish can't fix.) ( me)