Welcome, VampireKitten:
Sure, it would be great to be younger, but you're at a great point to be in life. Your transition should go along very well at your age.
Plenty of people here love to be in the chatroom, and I think you'd enjoy yourself in Susan's Place chatroom. Check it out if you haven't done so already.
Know what, your depression may lift and improve a lot ... by hanging around here and getting to know people who are a whole lot like you. Just be yourself and settle in. Glad you're here.