I'm definitely the most passive/submissive person let alone guy i know. always have been. i don't know if it's bad or not. definitely bad that way too many people have walked all over me/ hurt me and it's almost impossible to tell anyone even someone I've known my whole life how i feel. maybe it's due to feeling awkward/ancious/uncomfortable in the wrong body and I'll become the opposite through transitioning or the T alone will do that for me. maybe neither, that it's a major personality flaw that has nothing to do with gender identity and I'll always be like this who knows.
but i think what you have especially that scene about the kid pushing random buttons pretty much taking your dollar and you just walk away, sounds to me (I'm no psych or anything but just my opinion) like you have no sense of self worth and don't like yourself at all, that and how you said there was something wrong with you for being so passive told me that as well but that's just my guess. but good thing your getting help for that.
