Hey guys, I just wanted to give you a quick update on things happening with me. Recently, about 2 weeks ago; I had gone to my first transmeeting at a local glbt center. It went extremely well, I made some friends, went to some more events. I was complimented one night and it struck me so deeply that I decided to go full time.
Well life is moving forward, I am still full time. I still experience a bit of anxiety when I got out, especially during the day. I have not had laser on my face yet, so my shadow can show through my makeup on really bright light. Even still, I seem to pass fairly well. No one is giving me weird stares or anything.
I've been told my voice is already androgynous, which is cool because I haven't worked with it much. And when I try, I can get ma'am'd on the phone. I should work with it a lot more. It feels like I lost a bit of the lower range I once had, since I don't really use it anymore. I got into the habit if talking with my head instead of my chest, and I can't seem to get back into that chest voice if I need to. This is perfectly fine. I feel like my upper range has increased too.
I am soooooo much happier now. I've been a little sad, like when my boyfriend broke up with me last Monday. But my depression seems to have vanished completely. I am more outgoing, I made a facebook account with my girl identity, and I am actually willing to take pictures now. I smile, and I don't have to force it. I am finally myself, and it feels so good.
I can't believe how good it feels to actually be full time now. It's always so flattering when a guy flirts with me. One of these days, I'll flirt back and hook myself a man.
Anyway, I hope that my success can help inspire someone. Maybe my story can help get them out of a bad mood.
I love you all, thanks for being with me every step of the way. *big huggssssssss*
