I think I'm going to puke.

[Squirrel698]

The fact that she hasn't flipped out and called her church for an emergency intervention I would take as a real good sign.  That is what happened when my Mother thought she saw porn on my computer.  All that happened was a pop-up ad that showed something slightly objectionable.  This was a while ago obviously but I was still at adult with my own family and house.  She hit the roof and I had pastors calling me up and trying to get me to pray with them over the phone and she gave me about a hundred books on the evils of pornography.  Plus cried and cried and cried.  And I hadn't even been looking at porn! 

Just be glad you have your Mother, who seems at least to be respectful, and not mine.  She did everything in her power to drain me dry and I only escaped just in time.

[Mrs Erocse]

The fact that she hasn't flipped out and called her church for an emergency intervention I would take as a real good sign.  That is what happened when my Mother thought she saw porn on my computer.  All that happened was a pop-up ad that showed something slightly objectionable.  This was a while ago obviously but I was still at adult with my own family and house.  She hit the roof and I had pastors calling me up and trying to get me to pray with them phone and she gave me about a hundred books on the evils of pornography.  Plus cried and cried and cried.  And I hadn't even been looking at porn! 

Just be glad you have your Mother, who seems at least to be respectful and not mine.  She did everything in her power to drain me dry and I only escaped just in time.

That makes me think of,"Detroit Rock City."
Sorry that this has been a stressful time.
I think that Sandy gave good advice.
~Hugs~
Mrs Erocse

[Squirrel698]

I've never seen that film. 

Thank you.  It has been getting so much better for me ever since I walked away.

I agree that Sandy's advice is well worth considering

[Lee]

Squirrel, I'm sorry you have to deal with that.  This is when I'm really glad that I have a very liberal family.  (When I was still at my parents' place our cable switched over to one that has more channels, including some pay-per-view porn.  My mother thought it was funny and just informed my brother and I that we'd have to talk if the extra porn bill got to be too high.  )

[Devyn]

Parents keep tabs on kids. I'm surprised you thought anything you did on a family computer was private! .

I've never logged on here on the family computer. I only log on on my laptop. I don't know how my mom found this. o.o?? Oh well. What's done is done.

You all give great advice, btw.

[Mishamigo_Jared]

aww dude i'm sorry But, now she knows what your goin though....i wouldnt worry though, if she hasnt brought it up with you i guess she doesnt have a problem with it.

[Devyn]

aww dude i'm sorry But, now she knows what your goin though....i wouldnt worry though, if she hasnt brought it up with you i guess she doesnt have a problem with it.

She's been looking at therapists again. I'm going to take this as a good sign, but I'm not sure quite yet. I'm seeing how it plays out. I'm pretty cool with her (secretly) knowing now. At first, it freaked me out. I felt like it was an invasion of my privacy, but now, I mean...when I told her I'm bi, she's freaked out. I'd rather NOT have to say it.

In a way, it's all working out, even if it didn't happen the way I wanted it to.

Edit:// Also, if this goes well and my mom decides to let me be who I am after I go to therapy or whatever she's planning, I'm curious to know how it will go down with my dad. See, my step dad will just have to get over it because I live with him and my mom. However, I only see my biological dad two weekends out of the month and I only see that side of the family 2-3 times of year (who are very conformist, mind you. They still can't stand that my uncle married a black woman - who is actually really nice.) So, with my dad...my dad has said that he doesn't think kids/teenagers can decide something so important like transsexuality about their life yet. So, if it ever gets to the point where I have to tell him, well...that should be interesting.

[Lee]

I'm glad that it looks like your mother is handling this in a really good way.  Best of luck with your father.

[Tad]

if you're mom is looking at therapists (hey devyn's mom again if you're reading this!) look at these therapists yourself. Make sure they aren't ex-gay types. My dad at first told me to go see ex-therapist, that he had called and talked to them and that they sounded good. However when I looked into them - they were religous type dealios.. and I steered clear. And Devyn's mom, I gotta assume you're be reading this.. let your kid get a fair therapist - don't shove him into some kind ex-gay programming. That tends to only work on young children.

[Sharky]

The fact that she hasn't flipped out and called her church for an emergency intervention I would take as a real good sign.  That is what happened when my Mother thought she saw porn on my computer.  All that happened was a pop-up ad that showed something slightly objectionable.  This was a while ago obviously but I was still at adult with my own family and house.  She hit the roof and I had pastors calling me up and trying to get me to pray with them over the phone and she gave me about a hundred books on the evils of pornography.  Plus cried and cried and cried.  And I hadn't even been looking at porn! 

Just be glad you have your Mother, who seems at least to be respectful, and not mine.  She did everything in her power to drain me dry and I only escaped just in time.

Wow. Back when people used AOL there were special accounts for those under 18. My mom didn't find it in my history, but big brother AOL did. I guess I spent way too much time watching porn, because they shut the internet off in fear that I was actually a child predator something. I was about 11 at the time. One day I couldn't connect so my mom called AOL and thats how she found out. It was really bad. She was afraid she was going to some how get arrested.