I seem to be hot and cold when it comes to transitioning. I hit a patch where I got scared of it and figured I could be happy as a girl. I'm scared of coming out to people and I'm scared of their reactions. So for a few months I decided transitioning wasn't for me.
But lately I've started realizing that the fear isn't enough to keep me from transitioning. Lately things swing to the other extreme and I feel like I can't transition soon enough.
The vascillating worries me. If I start on T and then later hit a cold patch again, I'm kind of stuck.
Does anyone else get hot and cold around transitioning, or is it always constant for you?