Today has been a real rollercoaster.
This afternoon I had a therapy session and I got my hormone letter! I have an appointment Thursday to get in to see an endo soon. I'm super excited. Reading the letter was very weird as I'm not used to seeing Ms. (Last Name) and that meaning me at all! I'd say it was one of the best moments in my life when I read that letter, things are finally happening.
It's a shame that a few hours later my relationship of 4 years came to an end. I've talked about some recent changes previously...
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,88101.0.html..... today I pretty much found out that for the past several months (even before I started dealing with my gender issues) she had begun swapping pics (some erotic) texting and talking to other guys. I also found out that she even had a date set up for this weekend when she went out of town with a friend.
What bothers me the most about it all is that she's made me jump thru so many hoops and try so hard over the past month to keep this relationship alive, and not only that, over the past week she's led me to believe that things were getting better; had I not stumbled across what I did today, who knows when she would've told me.
When we talked, she went on to say that what I'm doing (transiton) is "weird" and being in a relationship with me "is weird" and she "just can't do it". Everything she said was very derogatory. I couldn't believe it, she just was not the girl I've loved and lived with for the past 4 years; the person I spoke to today.... I do not know her.
So, the begining and an end today.... that's life I guess.
~Sara
