Hey my names Lukas and Im a FTM. Ive been on here for a little. But Ive never posted. I have this thing about starngers and my personal life. But my sister keeps pushing me to use this is site to my advantage. I think she's tired of me calling her when I get depressed lol. Anyways!!! I'm younger and I just told my father about a month ago that Im a dude. He didnt take it badly but gave me a gaint lecture on how great women are and all this shiz. I was barely able to say anything and explain futher then "Dad I want to be a man." I barley got the chance to tell him why when he went off on his little escapade. I was hoping when I told him at least a few things would change. See I have a slightly controling step mother. Dont get me wrong, shes amazing and I love her, but she practically controls everything that goes on in the house. I cant get my hair cut without asking and she wont let me. Ive been asking since the last time I got it cut. Which was last year....actually a little over a year. I was able to con her into letting me cut it all off last year, but I havent been able to since. Its grown out and its a nasty lengh. It comes all the way down to my stupid bra. Another thing I thought would change was I thought he'd let me get a chest binder. But when I asked him about it he changed the subject. I cant buy my own cause I dont have a credit card. And the only store around is Walmart. though I have a friend who sews and she gonna give it a try and hopefully make me one. And Im bout to go against my parents, I dont want to, and cut my hair. I hope they understand when they finally give me the chance to explain. I need them to know that ever time I look into my mirror I just want to punch it. I hate seeing this soft skined face looking back at me! Or these gaint boobs just hanging there like the fat they are. Or how ever time I take a shower I feel gross. They wonder why I sleep so much, its because its the only place I can escape to! I told my frineds and they help. But they forget. I know it happens, its hard to say he when you can see a chest and long girly hair.
Well thats my life all wrapped up. Yep. I think I kinda got off of the subject of introducing myself though.......
