Memories

[JosephKT]

But, seriously, why would she draw pictures on the box of my favorite board game? write stuff on the bathroom mirror with toothpaste? put my watch into my toy oven instead of on the nightstand? move various other objects to different places? She was messed up, but the wasn't messed up enough to do stuff like that. So I figure it must have been me.

um.... that's just weird dude.  I don't know, it doesn't sound like something a kid would do no matter how impulsive and strange kids are.

[Arch]

I have good long term memory but terrible short term memory!

I have good long term memory but terrible short term memory!

I was going to post an LOL right after reading this, but I forgot.

[Arch]

um.... that's just weird dude.  I don't know, it doesn't sound like something a kid would do no matter how impulsive and strange kids are.

When I was six or seven, I really really wondered if there was such a thing as brownies or elves or space aliens, and they were coming into my room and moving around my stuff. It is extremely creepy to find a mysterious drawing that other people swear that you made but you are sure you didn't, or to find objects in a place you KNOW you didn't put them...

I also worried that people could read my mind and see how freakish I was. If I was around other people and found myself thinking something bad or weird, I would stop so they couldn't read my thoughts. Just in case. Just in case.

I used to think that memory repression was a load of hogwash invented by fanciful psychologists, and yet I knew that I had all of these little memory gaps. I guess I didn't want to admit that I didn't have total control over myself. And only a few repressed memories are traumatic--a lot of it was little everyday stuff. My therapist says that this can happen when people are under tremendous everyday stress. Maybe I was so busy trying to stay sane that I just didn't form certain memories?

I gather that experts are still divided on whether memory repression occurs at all. I'm still kind of skeptical about it, too, but it's hard to stay that way when I've had the experience myself.

[Sharky]

I used to get paranoid about people reading my mind too.

[Tad]

I used to get paranoid about people reading my mind too.

Super paranoid. Haven't felt that way since coming out to myself/the world. Had forgot that even existed. Was quite a common feeling before then. Worried that people would see what kind of thoughts were in me and would judge me for that.

[Everyone]

I can easily remember things before I came out. However, I only came out about a year ago, and am still not fully out. I did somehow manage to replace the gender of myself in childhood memories. lol I remember being a little boy who loved to dress up and wear makeup, but also loved playing with bugs and playing pretend cowboys lol