hey everyone. i'm gram.
i'm not much for introductions. i'm androgynous, i am a trainhopper and transient vagabond. i don't really conform to any societal norms, so why should gender be any different? the binary system never made sense to me. i didn't really notice gender at all until about 9 or 10. it was difficult, before i dropped out of school. in junior high i was very mocked and ridiculed. miserable time.
ended up not going to school for 2 yrs, bumming around with friends, then went to 9th grade at 16. i was feared then, and no one made fun of me. i guess the real world taught me some confidence, i had some sort of intimidating aura, i dont know..maybe it was because they were all 14, haha. i completed that grade and then left my hometown for real, due to complex reasons, and started traveling by means of hitchhiking, hopping trains and the occasional greyhound bus.
i dont fit in anywhere, really.
but i am lucky to have wonderful parents, who although are utterly poverty stricken and cannot help me in that way, support me as a person entirely.
i also have an amazing partner, who identifies as more male than female, however, he identifies with androgyny strongly. he has helped me immensely in becoming who i am today--confident with myself (to some extent--the self loathing comes back from time to time, a product of brainwashing i suppose).
someday i will hopefully be able to have a semi permanent place of residence, but thats not what is important right now. i am just glad i love myself, finally.
i'm here to talk, to hear others experiences, and to maybe help some people who are as confused and upset as i once was. i am not a stable person by any means -- sensation seeking, a plethora of mental disorders, chemically inclined....but i think i can learn from the people here, and maybe you all can learn something from me too.
...ok, that was cheesy.
lates.
