Wow guys, I haven't checked this thread in a while, and it's accumulated quite a lot of posts since then. They were quite fun to read, and it's nice to know about the different experiences people had.
Thinking about it, I wasn't really aware of my gender or how I was "supposed to act" as a girl until I hit puberty (12ish?).
When I grew armpit hair, I was quite happy with it, but I was made fun of in Primary school so I got rid of it. And with wearing bras, I never thought it was necessary and it never really occurred to me to do so until it was pointed out by this girl me and a friend met in a park.
I went through the make-up stage, but I felt very out of place, and I definitely couldn't relate to any of the other girls. I was quite the loner (Only really hung around with 1-3 people through Primary school and High school, and we never did anything girly together, it was always messing around)
Before the make-up stage I was alone, quite miserable (but I kept myself busy with school-work), I didn't feel like I belonged with the other girls. The make-up stage was still like this, though I probably got a little bit more acceptance from the other girls. I didn't really mind by tits until they got pretty big (C/D) but I was never "attached" to them (on an emotional level, I guess), and I certainly didn't want to make them look any bigger. I always really liked my upper-chest area because it was FLAT, and I thought my boobs just kind of spoiled it. Wanted to have a penis since starting periods? (I never really noticed my downstairs until then, when I kind of had to notice it) In the time that I was really reclusive (after coming out of school) I would always wear this black dressing gown (obviously with clothes underneath), and I would always cover up my cleavage without realising I was doing it. And the tops I used to have, that were kind of skimpy (I mainly wore pyjamas in that time period) I didn't like them at all, because they showed my boobs and everything.
When I would take baths on my own when I was little (about 7/8?) I would often put the bath suds/bubbles onto my face and use the cover off of a razor to "shave" it off.
I wore dresses to school until being like 5? My mum made me, and I think the school made it so girls had to wear dresses at that time though. I don't thnik I was ever bothered by that too much though. But since then I never wore any dresses (hated them) and I would wear more ambiguous clothing from the girl's section, and sometimes I'd wear my dad's jumpers when I was cold. I also remember asking my mum when I smaller if my voice was "boyish", since I thought it was deeper than other girls. Another thing I did when I was little, I think I was playing pretend with my dad in the garden, and I gave him a flower and he said something like "No, it's the boy who gives the girl the flower".
That is about all I can remember right now, and I apologise to anyone reading this, my typing got pretty repetitive (I am sleepy..)
