I'm in Eastern NM - for the past 9 years. I left Seattle, and the middle of a transitioning process to move and help with my son growing up. When I left Seattle, I had been taking hormones for about 6 months, and beginning the transition into full time. I felt some guilt, and left that all behind.
For all these years, I kept my self well hidden from most, but it seems that the pressures to be "me" are now greater than ever. My problem is living in a VERY small town and not having easy access to resources.
Yes, I've been somewhat depressed lately, and feel stuck. I'm now 47, and time is ticking away at an ever increasing pace. I had let myself go for years, but in the past year have lost 29 pounds that I had gained, and am working toward losing another 10. For what reason? Who knows.