Thanks all. Just woke up to all your messages.
Cruella, I dont think trans people have it especially harder than anyone else. A large measure of my grief is due to leaving my son because of the divorce and we all know divorce isn't special. Would I be getting divorced if I wasn't trans? Probably not.
My father's life the last few years before his death were horrible. Parkinson's, heart attacks and sleep apnea combined to turn a once vibrant man to a senseless shell of his former self. He was half machine at the end with brain implanted deep electrical what-nots and defribillators. He had episodes where he would shake uncontrollably for minutes at a time and it was one of these that finally overtaxed his heart. It was a horrible way to go and a cruel joke for a man that worked hard his entire life to retire to Florida so he could play basketball all year round. I think he got one good year before his health came apart at 56.
His death, while incredibly sad for me and my family, inspired me on this journey. We need to do what we need to do to be happy and do it now. Tomorrow may never come. I think of it as his last gift to me.
Of course, my wife likes to joke that I will get my SRS in 2012 only to have the world end shortly therafter. With my luck, it would happen after months of dilating, but before I got a chance to test out the new equipment! Need to work on that optimism!
