Definitions from Wikipedia
Behavior or behaviour (see spelling differences) refers to the actions or reactions of an object or organism, usually in relation to the environment. Behavior can be conscious or unconscious, overt or covert, and voluntary or involuntary.
Human behavior (and that of other organisms and mechanisms) can be common, unusual, acceptable, or unacceptable. Humans evaluate the acceptability of behavior using social norms and regulate behavior by means of social control. In sociology, behavior is considered as having no meaning, being not directed at other people and thus is the most basic human action.
Questions
1. How does the male and female behavior in you differ in different situations?
2. Are there times when you are more feminine or more masculine?
3. Do you ever feel you are 'faking' behavior?
4. When is your gender behavior most 'real'?
5. Does your appearance relate to your gender behavior? Are there ever times when your appearance and behavior of your gender differ? If so, how do you feel at these times?
Answers
1. There are times when the male and female are blended together. This is how I feel most the time during the day. I dont really consciously think about gender. I feel at peace knowing my appearance is androgynous, my communication is male; and that I can behave aggressive when I am exited or angry, or passive, shy, quiet, and soft when I am at peace or happy. There is no "I have to act manly or womanly".
2. When I need to work focused, get something done, have anger issues, get combatitive, or talk about aggressive topics with the "guys" the male in me really surfaces. The girl in me is still there, and sometimes I will say things from that side in me. There is a certainly a change. When I am socializing, at peace, relaxing, aroused, horny a more feminine part of me comes out in my voice, actions, thoughts, and mannerism. The male in me is still there also.
3. When I get too far expressing either male or female behavior, I start to feel like I am faking it. I will have to balance myself out by returning to a more centered position, or sometimes even go the other way for a bit. I remember playing basketball with my brothers one day. Later that day I had to take a nice bubble bath, then get into some silks to balance me out. Another time we spent the day talking girly, doing makeovers, and looking at dolls. That night I found myself watching wrestling and just wanting to be alone. If left in female or male mode too long, I get immensely agitated.
4. Now days I feel very real. I allow myself to feel both behaviors and even shifts in behaviors. I know I am not just 'male' or just 'female' and that its ok to be both or change around. A few years ago when I hide, separated, and at a time denied my female side of me, I reached the point of feeling incomplete, and part of my life was fake. Even when I accepted the feminine in me, but hide it from my family, friends, and public haunts of being fake plagued me.
5. Certainly most times that when I dress more feminine or male, my behavior raises also. Or maybe its because I feel more male or female, I dress the way I do. But I cant deny that dressing in a gender can influence some of my behavior, until a agitation of needing to balance out hits. I have however behaved opposite of my dressed gender on several occasions. This has come naturally, and didnt feel wrong. It just happens.
Kenny
