Feel at peace with the world

[Jenna_Nicole105]

and happy.. so very happy. Can't remember the last time I was happy two days in a row, yet here I am happy for the last two days.

Is this how things normally progress, once one starts to come to terms and accept that they are in fact likely transsexual?

I feel an inner calm that's just swept through my body and although I'm still a little nervous about my upcoming therapy session, my nerves are far outweighed by outright excitement and anticipation.

I'm normally a very tightly wound person, I'm no expert when it comes to the human psyche, though can't help but notice the fact that I wasn't tightly wound these last two days at work. I simply rolled with the punches and didn't let anything the big things... the small things.. nothing bothered me.

That's just something I don't do ever... I normally get rattled quite easily and always seem to be on edge and I didn't these past couple of days.

Seeing how many of you can speak from experience, does this sound anything like what any of you lived through?

All I know for sure is that I'm loving this new outlook on life, correlation with me getting closer to solving this gender riddle, that's eaten away at my soul for so very long.. or no correlation. 

[Melody Maia]

Oh yes, very much so. I used to chew my nails incessantly. That magically stopped. I used to get angry and frustrated easily, not so much anymore. I felt almost euphoric after I accepted myself. The key to keeping your new-found equilibrium is to keep moving forward and making progress, even if it is just a little at a time.

[Jenna_Nicole105]

Glad to know this is 'normal' to feel this way.

I want to just cry, because I've never really known what it felt like to be happy.

Instead of the tears of sadness that I'm so used to, simply tears of overwhelming joy.

I know there's challenges that remain ahead, dread telling my father for example (although I come from a liberal thinking open minded family.. given time I at least think he would accept) Also have come to terms with the fact that I'm going to ultimately have to find employment elsewhere.. that's all okay though!

Not going to let any challenges get in my way. This is 'it' my shining moment that I've searched my entire life for. I know who I am and I love it.

Euphoric as you put it, is a great way to describe it. Such a foreign feeling, but unbelievably  wonderful.

[Lee]

I want to just cry, because I've never really known what it felt like to be happy.
Euphoric as you put it, is a great way to describe it. Such a foreign feeling, but unbelievably wonderful.

I just posted in the "I love my life" topic, and I had almost this exact same thought.  Today's been basically wonderful, and it's the first time in my life I feel like I could genuinely say that.  I feel like I can actually live a happy life, whereas before I've always just wanted to climb back under the sheets.  Look out world, here we come 

[Jenna_Nicole105]

So very happy for you as well Lee!

In the end this a journey we all share together.

It's quite comforting to know that I have so many 'brothers and sisters' that can relate and to fall back upon when the hard times hit and depression tries to find it's way back into my life.

I'm simply going to enjoy the ride from here on out, nothing in the world is going to stop me from reaching my dreams and from being the person I was meant to be.

Much love to you Lee and may your journey be filled with happiness and joy.

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and there come the tears of joy, knew I could only hold out for so long. Wow happiness is wonderful, where have you been all my life!

[Melody Maia]

I am so happy for you Tiffany (and you too Lee). Remember this feeling. The tough times will come, but the knowledge that you are doing what is best for you and it will make you happy will see you through.