My Story

[gennee]

I joined this forum a few days ago. Here's my story as to how I started dressing.

I never had the desire to wear female clothes as a child nor was I inclined to. I have always been drawn to unusual and different things. I like things that were not necessarily mainstream or acceptable. In May 2005 I got this crazy urge to try on my spouse's skirt. I've had urges before and acted upon them. After putting it off, I acted on that urge. Instead of it going away it got stronger. I tried on her dresses, skirts and blouses. I was hooked.

I bought some panties for myself, too. The urge was still strong. I got scared because I didn't understand what was happening. I thought that maybe I could be bisexual but I never had a sexual desire for men. I sought some counseling because I was worried that this would interfere with my daily life. I laid everything out to the counselors. They concluded that I was a crossdresser. I relied 'Yes' when asked if I enjoyed wearing my spouse's clothes.

I struggled with these feelings for several weeks. Finally, in late July 2005, I came out to myself that I am a crossdresser. All the stress and tension dissipated. I have been at peace ever since. I just love the feel of women's clothing on me. I wear panties all the time. I wear bras, skirts, dresses, blouses, sweaters, and camis. I prefer skirts and dresses to pants because I wear pants as a male.

In March 2006, my wife found some of my stuff so I came out to her. At first she was rebuffed by it. She thought that I was gay but I told her that I'm not. It's strange how people think you are gay if you like feminine things. Kind of sad, I think  . Gradually, she realized that this is part of who I am and she lets me dress up. She's not totally approving but she doesn't stop me from being Gennee. I showed her some of my outfits. She likes them so much that we now share skirts and blouse and tops.

I have been out in public many times and want to do it more.   I was out last night and I loved it! I am researching transgender and crossdressing issues. I feel no shame or guilt about dressing up. I guess this was buried deep inside and I didn't know it. I was time for Gennee to bust out. I am totally comfortable with myself and who I am.

Gennee      

[Robyn]

Welcome, Gennee.  Glad you found us,  Be sure to look around and enjoy our Links area and the Wikipedis.  Chast, too.

If things are going fairly well, you might want to look for a transgender conference to attend, particularly one with a strong couples/SO track.  Really helps for wives to meet other accepting wives.

If you're in the Pacific Northwest, Esprit Gala is in Port Angeles, WA in May.

Robyn

[Suzy]

I guess this was buried deep inside and I didn't know it. I was time for Gennee to bust out. I am totally comfortable with myself and who I am.
Gennee      

Welcome, Gennee!  I suspect you are right.  Chances are this is not a new desire for you.  But you are on the path to self discovery, as most of us here are. 

Happy Trails!

Kristi

[Jillieann Rose]

Hi Gennee,
Good story.
I remember when Jillieann came out. It was a rather turbulant time.
Glad you made it thru. Welcome to the other side.

Jillieann

[gina_taylor]

Welcome Gennee,

It's really nice to read your story and to hear that your wife is somewhat supportive.  It would be nice if it was like that for all of us, but that's another story there.  Enjoy yourself as you get to meet others here within this wonderful group.

Gina

[Louise]

Welcome, Genee,

Many people confuse gender issues with sexual orientation.  Most male crossdressers are heterosexual.  I have had the urge to wear women's clothing for as long as I can remember, but it is only in the last eight years that I have dressed up on a regular basis at home (about once a week) and have occasionally gone out on the town dressed en femme.  Before that I would secretly wear my wife's things when the occasion presented itself and felt a horrible guilt about it.  When I decided to dress more openly, I told my wife about my crossdressing and she is now very supportive and understanding.  I also now have clothes that fit much better. 

[gennee]

When I was confronted with transgender, I combined sex and gender. That was an error on my part because they are totally different. I think in our sex saturated society, that's the natural assumption that is made. I'm comfortable with masculine and feminine. I go out more now and feel complete.

Gennee