I think it's mostly my mom has some very bad pain, has had terrible things happen in her life, and because of that has become a bit selfish... She spent so much time taking care of my dad (granted so did me and my brother) and now she wants to look at her needs. BUT she ONLY looks at her needs, and noone else is allowed to have problems...
In the car on the way home from school, I tried yet again, to talk about what happened with my overdose and the hospital trip and all that... These are her exact words... "Let's talk about something else... "I" do not FOCUS on sad things. "I" don't think about stuff like that, "I" get depressed thinking about that, and I don't think I need to be depressed... I'm trying to be happy, but I just am in so much pain, that I cant do it..."
Ya know how many times I complain or whine about the pain I'm in? NONE!! My neck hurts constantly, my eyes hurt, I'm sore all the time, I'm weak, tired, sick, just plain worn out from all the stress and emotional pain... But I never say ANYTHING about it, cuz I know she'll just go off about her damn hip again... Since when was she allowed to get depressed about what happened to me? I thought she was supposed to be here for me cuz I am depressed and in pain? I almost freakin died, yet I was having to let her cry on my shoulder about how she was hurting WHILE I was recovering in rehab!!
