Thanks everyone,
I hope nobody is going to be offended in any way, but I do find my en femme side ridiculous. I am not the most macho but have the appearance of a regular heterosexual guy/ bloke in many ways.
Would love to have a girlfriend, but part of me would love to be a female myself.
I have been looking up on ideas around love shyness and involuntary celibacy and wonder if my lack of sexual confidence is a factor in my cross gendered feelings- though I know many cross dressers etc, are in relationships with women, so it would naive to think Brina would disappear if the right girl came along. Is my femme side making me more shyer about whisking women off their feet!?
Nobody is pointing a gun at my head to force me to cross dress, and I would love to pass , at least on photo as a woman, and now wanting to step outside my front door as Brina, though I couldn't step out in broad daylight, at the moment.
I am trying to imagine how I would like to look, if I was really a woman. Looking at my images, I am bit by bit improving, probably still making some very schoolgirl errors, but I want the image to reflect me, but as a woman.