I'm going to do this! Though not just for myself.....

[Jenna_Nicole105]

To make a long story short, go back around 10 or 11 years ago.

I was a very confused person at the time, constantly depressed and wasn't sure if I was trans.. a male in touch with his feminine side.. or any number of other things, I just didn't know.

At the time there were a group of us who would talk on messenger nearly every night. We called ourselves The Night Owls, most of the Owls were girls already far along in their transition, although one girl Brea was young and unsure much like myself. I went by Kimmy at the time and continued to for many years after.

Anyway I did a search for one of those people on google Morwen, primarily to thank her for all the support during a rather rough period of my life and to let her know I've found acceptance and was going to move forward and to have her pass the word along to the others she still kept in contact with.

That's when I found out one of the 'owls' and a dear friend had passed away recently. I also found out that Morwen herself is quite ill nowadays.

I'm heartbroken right now and having trouble coming up with the words to type, I wish these girls knew how much they meant and continue to mean to me. I'm trying to fight the tears, but fight as I might they continue to come pouring down.

http://www.moronosphere.com/rayinneworleans/2010/12/betts.php

That is Betty... my heart breaks for you and it breaks for Morwen, because I know how much you meant to her.

I'm going to face any challenges that come my way and I'm going to dedicate it to all of you.

I love you Betty Ann Davis!

Thanks for everything...

[spacial]

Tiffany.

I feel privileged that you have chose to share these precious memories. I really am very grateful.

I am pretty sure that each of the Owls will be thinking of you, as fondly as you are of them.

[Jenna_Nicole105]

Thank you!

They all took myself and Brea under their wings more or less, they didn't have to.. just did so out of the kindness of their hearts.

I've lost touch with them over the years for the most part, but have continued to think about them on a regular basis.

If it weren't for them, I quite possibly would be dead by now. They helped to keep me sane during a time period where I was hurting immensely and confused beyond belief.

They mean the world to me and continue to give me strength even to this day, when I hit rough patches going to think of them.

[Jenna_Nicole105]

Was fine for awhile, but now crying like crazy again.

If it weren't for those girls who I found out of sheer fate all those years ago, I'm 99.9 percent certain I would be dead right now.

Don't think I could have gotten past that awkward and confusing phase of my life without them.

This just hits home, more than what I ever thought it would.. and to think that Morwen is apparently really sick as well, and she of all the 'night owls' is the one I was always closest to.

Not sure what to think at this point, I never met any of these girls in person.. but I love them like family.. because that's what they were to me.

I owe my very life to them in a lot of ways and this whole thing is just killing me inside.

[spacial]

Yep. You own them so much. I confess, I owe so much to my friends here on Susans'. But that isn't quite the same.

The satifaction you gave them from accepting their support, I'm positive, they will be thinking about, even now. It is that exchange which binds friends together.

I am truely sorry that some of your friends are so ill. It will be a great loss to you. But their memory will live on in you and be with you. That's what counts and that's what I'm sure they want.