My parents occasionally call me by a sorta masculine version of my very girly first name. They will use the name at home about 80% of the time, but they will very rarely continue to use the shortened name around other people in my family (like uncles, and grandmas, that stuff), or friends
They definitely dont use male pronouns when referring to me, and I dont see them trying to start any time soon, even tho the issue has been brought up a couple of times. When I bought my bike 2 months ago, my dad called me "his daughter" in front of the sales guy, it was so embarrassing. He continued to call me "she" the whole time too
I can tell they dont see me as male
My mum is also constantly trying to convince me out of everything. Last night she came to my room and told me she had recorded a special news story for me on tv. She told me it was about this guy who modelled male and female clothes. She said he looked like a female straight up, that he wasnt on hormones, or didnt have surgery, but his hair made him look like a woman...when he was modelling the girls clothes
Basically it made me feel like she was telling me that I dont need anything more than a haircut. My dad has tried to tell me that being a lesbian with short hair would be much easier. They both keep trying to tell me that even after surgery your body will never look normal.
They just dont understand I guess, but its hard to hear. They dont know about the emotional pain I go through. Or would you say they just arent supportive?
Other than all this, my psychiatrist is a liar! 8 months ago he was supposed to give me a referral to an endocrinologist. Just 2 weeks ago I saw him again, and he said he would send a letter in the mail within the next few days. Nothing has come
He is always crushing my dreams like this. And he is often on my parents side. Im going to try and bring up the topic of seeing a gender therapist, but Im not sure how too well that will go either.
