I joined this forum a few days ago. Here's my story as to how I started dressing.
I never had the desire to wear female clothes as a child nor was I inclined to. I have always been drawn to unusual and different things. I like things that were not necessarily mainstream or acceptable. In May 2005 I got this crazy urge to try on my spouse's skirt. I've had urges before and acted upon them. After putting it off, I acted on that urge. Instead of it going away it got stronger. I tried on her dresses, skirts and blouses. I was hooked.
I bought some panties for myself, too. The urge was still strong. I got scared because I didn't understand what was happening. I thought that maybe I could be bisexual but I never had a sexual desire for men. I sought some counseling because I was worried that this would interfere with my daily life. I laid everything out to the counselors. They concluded that I was a crossdresser. I relied 'Yes' when asked if I enjoyed wearing my spouse's clothes.
I struggled with these feelings for several weeks. Finally, in late July 2005, I came out to myself that I am a crossdresser. All the stress and tension dissipated. I have been at peace ever since. I just love the feel of women's clothing on me. I wear panties all the time. I wear bras, skirts, dresses, blouses, sweaters, and camis. I prefer skirts and dresses to pants because I wear pants as a male.
In March 2006, my wife found some of my stuff so I came out to her. At first she was rebuffed by it. She thought that I was gay but I told her that I'm not. It's strange how people think you are gay if you like feminine things. Kind of sad, I think 🙁 . Gradually, she realized that this is part of who I am and she lets me dress up. She's not totally approving but she doesn't stop me from being Gennee. I showed her some of my outfits. She likes them so much that we now share skirts and blouse and tops.
I have been out in public many times and want to do it more. I was out last night and I loved it! I am researching transgender and crossdressing issues. I feel no shame or guilt about dressing up. I guess this was buried deep inside and I didn't know it. I was time for Gennee to bust out. I am totally comfortable with myself and who I am.
Gennee 🙂
