Hello there...
Well, this is both weird and not-weird.
Let's see: I'm in my 40's, male physically, but in psyche/emotion I've been both man and woman for as long as I can remember. Being at ease with all this is a relatively new experience for me. I was abused by both my parents as a child, so I've had to shine my twin psyche through a loving prism to see how much of my bi-genderness is a product of their treatment of me, and how much is just who I am - and I think it's both.
I'm profoundly bisexual, and inclined towards polyfidelity (which feels somehow involved with all the above too). Just lately, I've found myself fascinated with reading and watching stories about transgender, transition, androgyny, intersex - since my 20's there have been 3 times where I've considered transition, but I've realised it's not that I want to be a woman instead of a man, it's that I want to be both - and I already am, but what I need is to find out how to be that and at ease with it. I've been hunting around for ways to describe myself to myself - this niizh manidoowag thing seems to do it the best (Ojibwe meaning "two-spirited")
Why I'm here tonight is because most of my friends can't deal with all this from me yet - they're rather wedded to their fences and sides thereof, and are uncomfortable with me not being either male or female, gay or straight. I've been very lucky lately to get to know a transman who was able to both listen to and challenge me, which has helped me see myself better - and I could use more support and challenge if I'm going to make more sense of all this, I think. So hello!
