New here. Used Susans site numerous times for great resources, stumbled across the message board today. 23 yr old f2m. Names J. Currently reside in the Midwest, recently moved back from the Bay Area, already missing it like crazy! Iv'e identified as male, as far back as I can remember. From standing on TOP of the toilet seat, peeing down, to going to bed praying I'd wake up with "what my brother had", to wearing jeans, a button down, and cowboy pants to my grandfathers funeral at age 9 telling my mom "Grandpa wouldn't care I didnt wear a dress!".
I've been fortunate and extremely grateful for the family I have. I have put my mother through complete hell, yet she's been my biggest support since day one. I have an older brother (26) who is still jealous I get more ass than him =] My parents were married for 25 yrs, before their divorce, and still remain close friends. I'm not "out" in public. I finished my last 4 years of school (high school), as a male (only principal and social worker new), and have worked since as male. I was very close to starting hormones, had all the blood work done, the diagnosis of GID, at 18, only to have my insurance pulled.
Since then I've been on one crazy life journey, all over the west coast, and it lead me back to the Midwest. I have stories for days, about my past, from being expelled from my first highschool (one i attended as female) with 3 days left of my sophmore year for "jumping on a picnic table" RIGHT, to having a family bring me to court for being with their daughter. My life, my journey, has made me stronger than ever, and is what keeps me going everyday. I will hopefully start my journey on hormones this year, and have chest surgery to follow.
If I figure this thing out, here's a couple pics.


me and my beautiful gf




alright had to do one more cuz she's just so effin cute!