This is my first post on here, just reading through the posts and this one caught my eye
I always use to dream this dream so much when I was young, every night, but now, even though I still dream it, I wonder what sort of person I would be if I had not gone through this strange experance. The horribleness of the feeling and the constant need untill recently to always run from my self has in many ways made me what I am (Im an artist, landscape and mytholgy) and if I had not in my younger years found comfort in nature from what I was, would I now have the relationship with the countryside to paint it like I do, and in my later years running from my self still, thrown me in my wonderings into strange bits of the world (the arctic) where I made one of my best freinds.
I wish I had been born a natural female, but try to think that despite all the low points I've had, it has given me a uniquie view on the world, which I have always taken as the prize for the bad times.
