Hi, introducing myself...

[samantha]

Hi my name is Samantha...well thats who I feel I am and wish to be called.
Its been a long journey to here..difficult.
I wasn't exactly the most male child around..even when I was born doctors thought I was going to be a girl.
Shame things didn't turn out that way would have been easier..but then again what is.
I was born male..this has never suited me.
I have always been very effeminate and have always liked being that way.
Well two weeks ago now I came out about who I was to my girlfriend and some friends of mine..it feels great.
I feel free and unrestrained I can now act the way I choose,dress the way I WANT, Get back in touch with who I am.
I have finally come to terms with the fact that I am female, always have been. I always felt out of place amongst guys they can be so abrasive and mean, at-least to me anyway..of course like I do I pretended to go along with the barbs and the constant insult swapping and testosterone fueled conversation. I hated my myself I never fit in amongst them..
It's okay to cry, to feel.
I'm a 21 year old mtf.
And since opening up to my friends and the people around me, I feel a little better about myself and my life. I still have a LONG LONG way to go to be who I wan't to be..but I will get there sooner or later.

Hi I'm Samantha, and I am a WOMAN.

[Steph]

Hello Samantha, welcome to Susan's.

I hope that you enjoy your stay with us.  There is a lot of information here so please take the time to explore, and be sure to read the rules.  I'm sure that you find that you are not alone in your experiences and that there is a lot of help and advice available should you want or need it.  Please join in the topics where you can and don't be afraid to start your own, as new points of view and ideas are always welcome.

So Samantha, relax, enjoy your stay, you're among friends.

Steph

[Suzy]

Hi Samantha!

Your story sounds so similar to that of lots of us here.  You are among friends and you've found the right place.

I look forward to hearing more about you.  And yes, you just go by whatever name your spirit dictates.

Peace!

Kristi

[Elizabeth uk]

Welcome Samantha. 

It's just amazing how many similar stories there are.

You mention having a long way to go, but I suppose it's always wisest to judge how far you've come.

[Jillieann Rose]

Hello Samantha,
I'm glad to meet you.
If your look for friends and or information about gender issues this is the place.
Please read the site rules if you haven't at:
https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,2.0.html if you haven't already.
Then check out the Wiki, with ton of info on the gender topics. Oh and check out our chat and links section too. Have a great read.
I hope to see more of your postings Samantha.
I really like that name.
Welcome to Susan's.
Jillieann

[tinkerbell]

Hi Samantha and welcome to Susan's!

Thank you for your introduction!

Hi I'm Samantha, and I am a WOMAN

I love this, Samantha.  You sure are.   I am glad you decided to join us.  I can see that you are experiencing the "coming out"  chapter of your life, and I am very glad that you have decided to do so.  I applaud you for your strength.  I know that at the beginning it can become a bit challenging to try to make our loved ones understand our convictions, but honestly I think that time is the best healer for everything we share in life.  Please take a sec to explore all the forums of the site, review the site rules and visit the wiki and chatroom where you can get plenty of valuable information and live support on any issues you are dealing with right now.  Enjoy your stay and stay well.

tinkerbell

[kimmie]

Hello Samantha
have a good day
Love Kim

[samantha]

Thank you all for you're kind words
I will certainly post often and try to be helpful around here.
I'm currently on holiday Melbourne, but I will visit the forums more regularly when I arrive back in Perth next week.
I plan on talking to my family next week well my mum and dad, a few already know.
That will be an emotional experience..

I haven't been feeling all that well this last day to be honest. was very sad..everytime I see my reflection I feel all wrong.
Usually I try not to let it bother me, just today has been particularly bad...
On the upside I saw the most beautiful dress in a shop today I went in to buy it, *sigh* it was like 300 bucks..so that idea went out the window.
Anyway, have a good night all of you.

Cya soon

[HelenW]

Welcome, Samantha!

Did we meet in Chat?  Well, in any event, I'm pleased you decided to join us here in the forums and I hope you get as much from your visits here as I do.  I also hope that I'll be reading more posts from you in the future.

again, WELCOME ! !
helen

[PurpleMaze]

Hello, Samantha
Your story sounds so much like I want mine to sound in time.  I guess you could say we give new meaning to the term so many men use jokingly, "lesbian trapped in a man's body."  I never really could fit in with the guys around me either, I mean, I have my few friends who are nerds like me, but even they start with the joking insults and the mother-bashing and all... I just sit there and take it most of the time, I could come up with some joking insult to shoot back, but that's not me, you know?  Anyway, I hope we can talk some more, and always remember, no matter what, you're never alone.  We all have days when we just want to smash the mirror to pieces, but if we actually do, then we can't admire ourselves when we're in our true forms, now can we? hehe.
Take Care,
Raye