Still moving forward

[bethw]

Just wanted to give everyone an update. I saw my GP today. She was very sympathetic but admitted that she hasn't worked with TG peope  before. She recommended I go on line and search for a GP that could help. She knows of one in New Hope PA but I live in Ocean County NJ near Toms River. She said she'd see if she could find someone as well. I feel excited but nervous that I won't find anyone.
Does anyone know of a doctor in Ocean County NJ?
My next step will be to have the big talk with my wife. It may take a while but it will have to be done. I'm so excited about moving forward but nervous about the future. I'M MAKING PROGRESS!!!!!!!!! Yeah!!!!
I'll keep you all posted.
Thank you all for the support.
Hugs
Beth

[spacial]

That's great news. It must have take a lot of courage to talk to your GP.

[Janet_Girl]

All we can do is move ahead one day at a time.

Try to Google your area.  I am sure there is a doctor who works with Trans patents.

[bethw]

Thanks  ladies. I appreciate the well wishes. I'm going to need a lot of support in the future and I know I can depend on you.
Hugs
Beth

[bethw]

Hi Janet;
I tried to google the area but couldn't find anything. Thanks for everything though. I appreciate it
Hugs
Beth

[spacial]

beth.

You might try contacting these people: http://www.njsg.org/

And these perhaps: http://www.gardenstateequality.org/issues/index.html

[Jayne]

I wish you all the best for telling your wife, I was so nervous telling my ex girlfriend that I was shaking like a leaf, I was very fortunate that she didn't take it too badly at first but she's convinced that the 8yrs together was all a lie even though I did truly love her, it was my body that I didn't love.

We chatted for hours & it was very surreal some of the topics that came up, we discussed makeup, shaving legs, men we are attracted to & my previous experience with men when I was a teenager (before I started really suppressing my feelings).

Once it sunk in over the next week she started taking it a bit worse but she still wants to be in my life so i'm fortunate that she is such an amazing woman.

please feel free to send me a message if you want my limited advice, all I would say on such a public space is try to be honest but not too honest (if that makes sense)

Best wishes & good luck

[erocse]

Great to hear Beth !!!  Sorry finding a doctor is difficult.  And the "talk with your wife" I hope all goes well.

  You can try this http://trans411.org to locate a doctor?

    Hugs, Roxy

[bethw]

Thanks Roxy. I'll give them a try. I'm not having any luck using google. It's very frustrating.
Hugs
Beth

[Debra]

Yah girl! I hope things go well with your wife. That's a major milestone, even just getting it out...but the sooner you get it out, the sooner she has to start wrapping her mind and feelings around the idea. Whereas you have had a while longer to process this now.

[bethw]

Thank you all for your help. I'm sitting here crying like a baby(or a little girl). I guess at this point that's exactly what I am.  My wife is in the other room. I feel that I'm going to lose her. I guess that's the price we pay. I'm not sure what's to be done. I'm not sure I can pay the price. She's my life, my love and even my soul. I may live the rest of my life hiding Beth. Beth is who I am but maybe Dalene(my wife) is more important. So much soul serching. At 62 so little time.
Thanks for being there for me.
So screwed up.
Beth

[spacial]

beth.

I really understand how you feel about your wife. I'm in the same position.

For me, at least, my wife comes before everything. I have survived this long with her support. I can't imagine going on without it.

[bethw]

Thanks Spacial. She means everything to me. I'd rather stay the way I am than hurt her. I'd probably go crazy if I do stay like this but we'll see.
Thanks for caring.
Hugs
Beth