Your "Ideal Self"?

[Padma]

So, do we get to see you in a black catsuit? My aspirations when I was a kid weren't that sexy - I wanted to be Julia from White Horses (which was confused by the fact that my best friend at the time's mother was her voice in the dubbed English version!)

[tekla]

http://www.fanpix.net/picture-gallery/diana-rigg-picture-15580126.htm

The US never aired that episode on the original TV run.

[Padma]

This is how *I* remember her .

[tekla]

Rigg did not like the leather outfits and had Pierre Cardin brought in (like season 4 or 5) to redesign an entire new look for Emma.

[Janet_Girl]

Just because ...

[asher]

(Sorry if this thing's already been posted)


I was wondering if anyone of you had someone you kind of aspired to emulate, whether personality-wise or physically? Kind of like a personal Ubermensch? Mine's actually really embarrassing, but it's a character from an ongoing series I've been writing. When I finally came out as trans, I realized I was basically writing about a more jacked, intelligent (and admittedly more violent) biomale version of myself and that's actually who I aspire to be someday...minus the whole massmurder part. Hopefully.

In a goofy way, I feel like I've been living out the life I was denied through this guy and now, I'm thinking of a future where I could feasibly be him. And it honestly makes me giddy sometimes.

So, anyone else have someone/something like this? Could be a real person, a fictional one, or hell just an archetype/concept you're drawn to.

(Also, sorry if any of that's weirdly worded, I'm incredibly tired right now)

Honestly this is exactly what I've been doing my whole life and never realized. It's kind of awesome other people do this too, haha.
I've had the same character since I was just a kid. In my dreams ever since I can remember I've always been a guy, save for a select few. After a while in my dreams I started living out story bits he was involved in. It took me a looooong time but I eventually figured out he was me.

It's weird, because as I progressed through different stages of understanding my own gender and sexuality I always started out with new characters. I would make a character with a specific orientation/gender with no preconceived intentions other than to create a character. As I weaved out their story I would grow to like and understand them on a deeper level. Fast forward a few months or years even, and I would find myself coming to terms with very mirrored situations with that character. I've cycled through a few to get where I am now.

But that first guy has always been there, and always consistent.

I think it's pretty amazing the things we can do without realizing. I guess once we examine it enough it really explains a lot.

[RN1814]

Bruno Mars

[jyoti]

This would be the idealized female character I created in Secondlife 3d game before I undergoes transition, but strangely after HRT, I begun to love myself more as view from the mirror after makeup than I did with the game character I've made, and consequently I seldom log in the game nowadays.

[N.Chaos]

Honestly this is exactly what I've been doing my whole life and never realized. It's kind of awesome other people do this too, haha.
I've had the same character since I was just a kid. In my dreams ever since I can remember I've always been a guy, save for a select few. After a while in my dreams I started living out story bits he was involved in. It took me a looooong time but I eventually figured out he was me.

It's weird, because as I progressed through different stages of understanding my own gender and sexuality I always started out with new characters. I would make a character with a specific orientation/gender with no preconceived intentions other than to create a character. As I weaved out their story I would grow to like and understand them on a deeper level. Fast forward a few months or years even, and I would find myself coming to terms with very mirrored situations with that character. I've cycled through a few to get where I am now.

But that first guy has always been there, and always consistent.

I think it's pretty amazing the things we can do without realizing. I guess once we examine it enough it really explains a lot.

That is funny. I do that too, I've looked back on old stories and realized that everything I've ever written was based on something happening IRL, whether just rage-fueled fantasy or my interpretations of it. What's amusing-to me at least- is that most of the times, the characters I write that end up being based off me are like the anti-Mary Sue. They turn into this near-tangible embodiment of all my worst qualities. Someday when I'm in therapy eventually, I'd really love someone to psychoanalyze my stories lol.

[Staci3336]

Wow great topic , much deeper than you realize. When I was first accepting or finding my way that I was trans, I really had a hard time understanding who I was and would be. As I moved into further, I really found out I was basically the same person just a female version of me (make sense?) The only thing that was different was physically and the areas I was acting out a male role, other than that,, everything was the  same,, same strengths, weaknesses, likes/dislikes.. Even my style was just a feminine version of the guy mode.. Really weird but also enlightening.. Took alot of the fear out of being Trans

[King Malachite]

Since about 8th grade I've always saw my ideal self as Haruka Tenoh from Sailor Moon.  I felt her personality was close to mine and I loved her body shape of being an athlete.   However now my ideal self changes depending on how I'm feeling.  Right now I see my ideal self as Zoran Lazaravic from Uncharted 2.

[Pica Pica]

There are lots of people I admire, especially the elements of many writing styles from all kinds of writing but when it comes to qualities in other people I would like it keeps coming back to two men called Samuel. Samuel Pepys lives life with complete gusto and joy, and I would like more of that. Samuel Johnson has a solid morality that runs through everything he does and a strength not to back down, and I would like that also.

Aside from these qualities, I think I am slowly becoming the person I most want to be, and it is great fun.

[Ana]

My ideal self...hmm...

I am a 5'7'', 480 lb, 28 year old Italian woman stuck in the body of an average sized (6'0'') 28 yeard old white male. I am also currently non-op M2F. One of these days (once I get enough posts) I'm going to post a picture of my muse. It's a drawing but in the face alone, it is was I fantasize myself looking like. A confident, beautiful SSBBW (super sized big beautiful woman.)

[alexharmon]

I always admired my male friends who always made humorous jokes and just acted "dudely" without overcompensating their male side.

Mainly, the guy I really wanted to be like I really liked in High School. He had medium-length brown hair that he always combed nicely, he had some great fashion sense for a guy and defied gender identity. I guess, what you can learn about me, is that the guy I want to be is a metrosexual..?

When I invision the me I want to be, I imagine a guy with semi-long spiky hair, flared jeans, a baggy tank top showing off my muscles, tattoos, and angular glasses. I'd be quite comfortable in my own body.

[elklark]

When I was a kid who was oblivious about things like gender variance, I liked to emmulate Link from The Legend of Zelda a lot.

As an adult, however, I have many, many real world idols who I like. In terms of looks, I'd be happy looking like Buddy Holly. It's not to drastic of a change to who I am, and I don't mind other aspects of myself...and I'm never going to be a professional musician, that's for sure.

[Kelly J. P.]

 I once created a person who represented everything that I aspired to, as well as all the light and goodness in me at the time.

I once thought that she was my ideal self, and the the other parts of me were undesireable. However, I have learned in the last year that every part of myself - masculine, feminine, dark, bright, and all other aspects - was very desireable.

So, these days, I aspire to be everything that I am, and while I hold that fictional character in high respect, I am more busy, these days, being myself, for better or worse.

[Kyyn]

Appearance wise
This would be it at this point in my life.

Less female - more male/andro

[Artemis]

The problem with this question is that it's a fantasy but here goes...

My "ideal self" would be a tall blend of Gwyneth Paltrow, Rachel Weisz, and Neve Campbell.

A sophisticated graceful elegant (business) lady (with hobbies like ballet, yoga, reading, homemaking, etc)...

And if I where to let go of any restrictions...

my fantasy self... I would also be someones wife and the mother of 2 (and it is this that makes me so very sad)

[Amazon D]

I am now myself: a non gender stereotype but a spirit living with a shell that has many people wondering with curiosity just enough to not ask but safe enough not to be attacked and this has allowed me the ability to reach out to all types of people both religous and non.

[Felix]

I wanted to be a great scientist or explorer. I wanted to be quiet and honorable and respected and very very brave.

I also wouldn't mind being a dragon or a mockingbird or a jackal. I definitely knew that simply growing up to be normal was a pretty tall order, so I fantasized a lot.

My ideal self now...I don't really know.