Since my aunt and dad became aware of my transition, they seem to be trying to "control" the situation. I completely understand any advice and whatnot they may have when it comes to my education, finances, jobs, where I live, etc. But this is territory they know nothing about. They barely understood (although supported) my sexuality when I came out as attracted to women. So for them to step in and tell me I "need" to do this or I "need" to do that, is completely out of place and it's pissing me off.
my relationship with my aunt has always been amazing. She's awesome, I love her. But this is hurting that relationship. She has a huge personality that barely allows anyone to get a word in edge-wise in a conversation. When I try to answer a question or explain something she interrupts and tells me what I should be doing.
She just contacted me on Facebook saying we need to talk, after I made a post about seeing my endo. I have a very strong feeling she is going to tell me I "need" to wait or should not go on hormones. She's going to go on and on about all the negative effects and the permanence of this decision, assuming I know nothing of any of it and won't even hear me when I say "I FKING KNOW."
This is my decision, my life, and unfortunately, along with my dad, she feels she has a part to play in when I make my decisions and how they're made. I'm twenty. I'm a legal adult who's carving my own path through MY OWN life.
I'm really scared how much strain this transition is going to put on my family relationships. I know there's absolutely no relationship in life that you can take for granted. I can't expect anyone to be there by my side forever and always. All I can do is appreciate those who do and let go of those who don't.
I kind of just wish sometimes I can set my family aside for a while, put them on pause or something, or just move the ->-bleeped-<- away for a few years and come back fully ME and not have them barging in on my decisions. In the end, it's none of their god damn business.
