SInce I went into full time, I got involve more and more interactions with other people who has no idea of my T satus (most of the interactions are not dating related), and I got some guys asked me out, and I did go out for some dates. but Even I did have good feeling about the guy and I believe he like me also, I intented to keep him in distance because my "T" issue special I am still pre-op. I want to have relationship very baddly since sometimes I really feel loney after being struggle along for a long time, but I am so afraid that as soon as we are getting beyong the normal friendship, the physical intimancy is invitable. and I know how hard that thing between men's leg can drive the men in the relationship. So I think even th guy see and accept me as girl and as who I am, that urgly thing between my leg can easily push a normal man away no matter how strong he like me because the relationship which only have emotional connection but no physical connection seem so unrealistic to me. That will be pretty hurting to myself and the guy who try to have relationship with me.
so I think it's better for me to forget dating and keep all the guys in distance until I have my SRS, after that, things may get easier. Am I making a right decision? Now it seems I may need to push my SRS earlier.