thanks hun, still early days for me in a way, still so much to look forward to but getting onto the femme juice has been a good journey for me too, it's a good time to pause and reflect on what has passed and what is yet to come
It's almost hard to sum up the last 20 months as in a way things have started to blur together, then again I've known since I was 4 that I wasn't the girl on the outside that I was inside, but was too afraid to say anything. Finally took me 30+ years to get over that fear and come out to my parents, my brother, my sister in law, my aunty and cousin, my BFF Zoe who's been my strongest ally, my workplace, my neighbours.
While that was going on there was getting an NHS referral, the initial interview, the voice therapy, the private hair reduction therapy which soak up all my savings, changing my name and all my documents (some of which I later found out hadn't actually been changed and I kicked ass about it this week), starting to live full time as my true womanly self, getting the diagnosis that I am a genuine transwoman and now getting my first prescription for feminising hormones.
Other stuff that's happened include worrying about losing my job, getting my ears pierced, attending work's union conference, learning how to do my make up properly (ie not too little but not too much), standing for union rep at my work place and getting chosen to be the LGBT rep as well as a general consultative rep, more worrying about losing my job.
Now I can look to the future, waiting for my boobs and bum to slowly grow, hoping that the muscle mass on my shoulders and upper arms will decrease and maybe the nightmare between my legs will shrink a little so it's easier to tuck it out of the way until the day I get it cut up and have a nice vagina installed there instead
