Okay I'll try to make it short for those that are wanting to know what changes to expect...
SKIN: VERY VERY SOFT NOW. It feels amazing. But that happened a long while ago.
BEARD: I started Laser treatments and it went extremely well for me. I had a medium thick beard and it took most of it off with a few patched of hair. This is only my first try. SO I am very HAPPY!!!!
Hair Growth: I still have my receding hair line but I think that I'll take care of that through transplants and/or hair pieces/partial.
FACE: THE BIGGEST CHANGE. Some of my friends are starting to really notice "something different", but can't place it. LOL
In pictures I seem to look like a FTM (I'm Male to Female though), because I still wear my boy clothes and I am not full time.
I can see people looking at me trying to figure me out.
CLOTHING: I am def Andro at this point. I paint my nails and I am going for more of a EMO ROcker vibe while I wait for FFS.
I do wear all girl clothing around the house and I almost exclusively wear girls jeans since my shape can't wear boy stuff anymore.
Weight: I really haven't gained much at all. I am at the same weight that I started 223. It's still a lot for a girl, BUT I'm also 6 ft. or less and it doesn't really look like it. I AM planning on hitting the gym now that my baby is born (she's two months old).
BODY SHAPE: Def heading into the girl realm. I have developed around the butt and thighs quite well. To the point that those peeps that know I am Trans have commented on it favorably. LOL My hips seem to be doing some work as well. I am happy about this and hope that once I am in the gym, I can help that out a little more. At times, I'll wear a body shaper and that REALLLLYYYY helps out the look even more to a womans shape.
BODY HAIR: Diminishing. I can shave once every week and a half or so and be done. My chest hair is thinning but I may do Laser if I get impatient. I think in a year or two it may not be there but I don't think I can wait!
EMOTIONS: YEP! Def girlie on that side. I'm not afraid to explore and express this anymore. I think it might come across to some that I am acting more "gay", but I don't care. My wife thoroughly enjoys it. I feel more of a connection to her and the baby because of this.
SEXUALITY: As I have admited I am Bi I always will be. But I am in a strong, loving and monogamous relationship with my wife. I am able to express through comments what I feel so I don't feel like I'm holding anything back. She doesn't feel threatened by me at all and we are very very very secure in our love.
TMI COMING UP...
In bed, we alternate roles, and that is very satisfying. I've noticed that the area below my Testis is extremely sensitive and I can almost orgasm by having her stimulate it! My orgasms are even more strong than before but sometimes take a little longer to take off.
I still get erections. Although, not as much as before. I'm not afraid or disgusted by this as others seem to be. I'm not sure why, but I know it doesn't make me feel any less a woman because of it. Perhaps because I don't have to worry wether or not my wife enjoys it or whatever. I would eventually like it taken care of, but it's not a priority. I was also thinking it might be because I still look at our relationship as more of a Lesbian one, and like most lesbians they love their dildo's LOL I just don't have one I can detach. When I think of it that way, it helps me deal with it....for now.
I love wearing my lingerie to turn her on though. I find that I am daydreaming more about situations rather than the actual act. In other words, I think about her coming home and I have a romantic dinner ready for her and then I undress for desert and give her me! Rather than let's ->-bleeped-<- and get it out of the way.
PUBLICLY: I'm not out completely and although I can probably start to dress more fem, I don't. I am not quite a high profile figure in my work but a lot of people know me. I am slowly getting them use to it. A lot of my friends know already. I would say around 95 % or more. They are extremely supportive. Surprisingly, my black friends ( I am white ), that play the macho card have accepted this even more than my white friends.
Family: My brother and sister know, but not my younger one. I have tried to explain it to her but she is not really "getting it". My mom is slowly but surely digesting it. My uncle who's been like my dad, was told recently and he thinks I should find a "cure". He doesn't get it but still loves me.
OVERALL HRT EXPERIENCE: It's been amazingly great, but I did have a time when I was NOT getting some of my Femones. This was due to a mix up. I was late by 3 weeks. I did see things going backwards and that bothered me...BUT I have to admit when they kicked back in it was a little stronger than before! I sprouted boobies! A cups! So I am back on schedule!
I got off the Medroxy and I am hoping to find a way to get the micronized version of it...but in the USA it's really expensive to get. About 100 a bottle!!!
I am going to try doing Anti-Androgens like Proscar. I think this will boost the HRT even further and help me with my feminization even more. I want to get it to the point that people will see me more as a woman than andro, but honestly I think that because I am a late bloomer (eventhough people still think I am in my early 30's) and all the testerone "damage" I may eventually need FFS to pull that off. For now I feel very happy with the results BUT also very frustrated with the fact that I'm taking the long road with my transition due to my position at my work. If I could do it the way many already have before me, I would. Right now, I am taking the route I feel is best for me under my circumstances.
In conclusion it's an amazing journey so far and I have no regrets. HRT has been a blessing as it has make me for me. If you haven't started, you should stop thinking too much about it and get going. You'll be glad you did!
