Different Kind of FTM Story

[KamTheMan]

My story is a bit unusual. I only began consciously questioning my gender about two months ago, I'm not out to anybody and I've yet to see a therapist, but I know I need to talk to someone if I'm ever going to get myself figured out. Anyways, the reason why I'm a bit different, is because I'm 6'3 with an A-cup chest and naturally deep voiceÍ. I was passing regularly before even realizing how much I enjoy being called sir and bro. I only started researching being FTM when my parents spent a few days really hassling me about my hair and clothes. I worry though, am I questioning my gender because it's easy or because I really am more comfortable as male than as female? Would that even make sense? These days when they ask me I go into major denial.. Do you think I may have already screwed myself by being so adamant before that I'm not trying to be a boy? At the time it's what I thought.. now I don't know.

[Sharky]

6'3 and a A cup, Damn you're lucky!

I wouldm't say being an FTM is easy. You've got a couple advantages,  but it's still a rough ride. Sounds like you may have some inner transphobia to work out. I used to try to convince myself that I wasn't trans, it would last a few months. After those months the feelings would just be stronger than before. Good luck figuring yourself out and accepting yourself.

[KamTheMan]

Hey Sharky, thanks for the reply. You saying I may have some inner transphobia to work out got me thinking. Coming from an extra tall family, I think we all sort of made up for looking so different (and having each been given ->-bleeped-<- for it at some point in our lives) by looking down on other people that didn't fit the mold of being attractive/in shape/'normal'/etc. I'm thinking about trans or genderqueer (bio-male and bio-female) people I've come across in the past and how I've sort of shied away. Has anyone heard the saying, "there's something about you I don't like about me."? Hmm.. I think I may have just had a mini-breakthrough.