Tonight will be the last time i pray..

[Make_It_Good]

There is a reason you were born. There is a reason you were dealt this, burden and cross to carry. There is a reson for wanting to change what is wrong. There is a reson for every tear, every lament, every painful moment you have experienced. There is a reason for you being a beautiful woman you are. There is a reason for your life, your love, your passion. You have touched me right now and made me cry, as for many others as well. There is a reason for you to go on, fulfill whats rightfully yours and bless this world with your beautiful presence.

I agree, there is a reason.
I will admit, my personal faith has really wavered, weakening greatly at times, mixed with guilt, then I find my strength again etc. I have always been a Christian. And these past 5 years during my transition I have struggled. Ive felt so angry at God, like you said, it was 2 out of 2, there was a 50 50 chance U would be male or female, instead, Im ftm. Ive felt so angry that things have been this way. I dont want what can sometimes feel a half life, my childhood lost, and now Im 20, (I know still young) I feel my teenage years have been lost to a depressed fraud too.
   But then, we just have to stop and realize all we do have. We dont actually have to do much to realize ad ackowledge there is still so much to be thankful for. And I believe that aslong as we persevere and work hard for ourselves, for others, things will improve. We cant give up.
There is a reason, and that reason wasnt to feel complete anger forever, or to give up etc.
God is working behind the scenes.
I still struggle, but my faith gets me through.

And I quite like how youve put your opinion N.Chaos!

[jainie marlena]

Proof that I am a god and that She does answer prayers: I have made myself the woman who I wish to be.

:-)

Gods throughout history only help those who help themselves.

"are ye not gods?" "If he called them gods, unto whom the word of God came, and the scripture cannot be broken;" The body of Christ is female

[jainie marlena]

I believe there is somthing out there, but I don't no what... And at this moment in time, I don't believe it's god. Just my thoughts.

It my sound strange but you have more wisdom than any person that I knew going to church. If only everyone could understand that would be great. I am happy that you have chosen not to form gods in your mind. If only everyone could have thought  like this. I think I may quote you in a book for everyone to read.

[Amy1177]

I have sent out similiar prayers but quite honestly glad they were never actually manifested.  With as crazy as this world is, if that miracle was ever answered can you imagine the science experiment you would become.  You never been seen or heard from again.

[Tesseract Allen]

You know what, I think I'll try this out for the first time since I stopped believing there was some kind of higher power.

Before my breath slows it's rhythm I'd like to see my thoughts gain solidity. I ask for little, or not at all, and hope all that somehow makes this the one to answer. I pray to you, the cosmos, the ghost in the carbon, the entity that allows me to feel the wave of language wake, please let my fear go and let my aspirations ascend to post need. Let me fill myself up with the feminine spirit to gleam a life that will make me happy. And soon. I ask for soon...

[Cindy]

I have no belief in gods, but I do believe in humanity, another dying belief I fear .

But I keep going everyday to, hopefully, move myself forward, help someone who needs help, and if I can annoy the hell of another jackass who thinks people like me shouldn't exist, it's a joy

Cindy

[rejennyrated]

I said something like that prayer very night for nearly 25 years. During much of that time i had to contend with being "close - but no cigar" as the Marx brothers would probably have said. I pretty well lived the life but didn't have the body. Every night I dreamed that it had finally happened and every morning I awoke to disappointment.

Then one glorious night in my 25th year I knew I could stop praying because I had taken the step of faith needed to make my dream come true. I had voluntarily climbed onto an operating table and put my life into the hands of a skilled surgeon.

Does God exist and answer our prayers. Yes, but the answer lay in the fact that SRS was invented.

[justmeinoz]

I can remember at some point in my childhood realising that that sort of prayer is not what it's all about, because magic like that doesn't happen.  Prayer is about something totally different to such childish selfishness, which I deserved not to have  answered.

[PixieBoy]

I didn't just pray to the Judeo-Christian God, I prayed to all gods, demons and other deities I could think of. "Dear God, Jesus, Buddha, Krishna, Vishnu, Set, Anubis, Amaterasu, Satan, Beelzebub, Cthulhu, please make me wake up like a normal boy, like my dream is." Despite being an atheist I still prayed like that. It never happened, of course. It just got worse and worse. I also had some vague idea of how I should go to the school nurse and ask her what to do if you had the wrong puberty, and when I would be like the other boys in class. I was 12 or something when I thought like this.

Nowadays, I don't pray. I just believe in the future, no gods or other deities. The future is what we make of it.