Hi, I'm new here. Well anywhere really. I have know I was a woman all my life, just had the misfortune to be born male. Old story, huh.
Well for me it is sooo true. I knew at around 5 years of age that my body wasn't right. I was a girl. I wanted to be a girl. I would play almost exclusively with the girls, use their lunch line and admired so much the pretty clothes they got to wear. When we played we almost always played 'house' and I was the Mommy, it just felt right. If it was 'doctor', well you guessed it I was the nurse. {laying 'house' was so much fun as my Mom and my playmates Mom let us dress up in their clothes. Walking in heels was exciting and natural.
As I got older I found nylons to be the most exquisite item I could put on my body. With dress, nylons and heels I was a woman and did pass during my pre-teen and teen years. It was exhilaratingly to be dressed as I knew I should be. It was also comfortable and relaxing just to be me and not pretend to be a boy. From 5 years on till to day I knew my body was wrong and I still dislike my 'plumbing'.
Around 20 or so my Mother told me that I must be the boy I was born and would have to do that regardless. Well I did and to do it I created a male personae that last to this day. I'm now 55, married with children. Although over many years I struggled and wrestled within myself over denying myself. About 12 years ago I just had my revelation and became at peace with myself.
My mind, my spirit, my heart and my soul were a woman's ... that was crystal clear. No more discussion or fighti or denying necessary. Although I am "out" only in a few places, this board included, I am happy to learn and bide my time. As I said I am married with children and although my wife keeps busy with the kids and her things she never comments or wants to know about my life. My children on the other hand (three over 18 and one under) sometimes chuckle and tell me about my feminine mannerism. They'll comment on how I sit with my legs together or crossed at the knee, or my soft spoken 'girl' voice or the 'swishy-swayey' way I'll sometimes walk.
Truth be told at this point in time my needs and desires do not make the priority list, I'll just have to wait.
