To be completely honest I don't know what you expect any of us to say. All that you can do is empower yourself to change your situation. Find a way to get out of town, whether that's to get an orchiectomy or to move. Unless you take the initiative to change your situation, it will not change. You cannot expect anyone to accept you. I had to come to that realization, and once you do it's just icing on the cake when somebody does. Expect the worst, hope for the best.