Hi everyone, it is very strange the way I am feeling right now, I know I am happy but there are other feeling I have not felt before or have not felt for a long time and I have now forgot how they feel.
So I guess a good question would be-- How did you feel after you got your letter to start HRT?
I got my letter for HRT today and I am happy as I said and there is no bad feelings but it does feel strange, I think that after reading the letter and how the Doctor was telling everything in the letter, it helped me see even more what I truly am, he even refered to me as SHE
I could see my entire life on paper in the words of my Doctor from what I have told him in our sessions, and it was great, it was liberating and more, I always wanted this and I even bought some HRT 2 times before without a doctor but I got scared and threw them away both times, I did not want to do it with out a doctor and be a bad girl
Now at last I will get to start my puberty
And I will have taken another step in the travels on my road to ME
I never new how much I suppressed myself and I never new how brainwashed I was as a man so I could make it in life.
Now I am sure I will clean up my brain and untrain the manly things and let the girly things out.
And if anyone wants to come up to me and give me some negitivity this is what they will get
I did not take years of martial arts for nothing and my older brother has a new found little sister to protect, he is big and strong too
Well I will stop ranting for now or what ever it is I am doing and I will enjoy the fact that I will soon be getting the antidote to the poision I have been taking for so long and then I will start to be me
Aloha nui loa
Jennie
