This is it. Really need some support.

[Emmy]

I've told like all my friends, but only one of them I feel can really give me the support I need with this whole situation.
But that's about it.
Plus she's asleep.

I was really upset yesterday and decided I couldn't wait anymore. I've set deadlines to tell my mother in the past, but never did.

I'm ready to get it over with so I'm going to send her an e-mail this morning.

I'd just like some kind of support because this is a big deal. :[

[Sephirah]

*big hug*

Remember, whatever happens, you're not alone hon. Whether you come back later with a grin wider than the Grand Canyon or... not, you will always have people willing to listen and support you in any way they are able.

Good luck, and I dearly hope your mother has some sense and welcomes her daughter with love and understanding.

*extra hug for good measure*

[Emmy]

thanks so much.

I just sent it.
I can't believe I really did it.

I'm freaking out so much.

[Sephirah]

Take a few deep breaths. Working yourself up by thinking of everything that could happen won't achieve anything other than to send your heartbeat into a high speed rendition of "Ride of the Valkyries". There's nothing you can do now until you get a response, so find something to take your mind off it. Go for a walk, do something you enjoy, watch a movie etc.

[Devlyn]

We're right here beside you all the way! This is a support site, after all! Hugs, Tracey

[Emmy]

thank you Tracey.

Take a few deep breaths. Working yourself up by thinking of everything that could happen won't achieve anything other than to send your heartbeat into a high speed rendition of "Ride of the Valkyries". There's nothing you can do now until you get a response, so find something to take your mind off it. Go for a walk, do something you enjoy, watch a movie etc.

I would.. but I live at home with my parents. It'd be much easier for me if I lived alone because I wouldn't have to see my mother after telling her. It's not so much telling her that worries me, it's telling her and then having to face her and still live in her house.

I don't really want to see her at all today. I'm hoping she goes out. I feel I really need some time away from her to calm down and so she can think to herself.

I'm just staying back in my room for now. :\

[spacial]

Now that you've sent it, may I suggest you think of it as written confirmation of what you are ready to say?

[Janet_Girl]

Emmy, you should know that we are here for you. =)   I hope everything goes well for you.

[Emmy]

I really have no idea how this will go.
I'm glad it's off my chest, but my mother has a tendency to go crazy about things.

I can hear that she's awake now, but I haven't gotten a reply yet. I don't think she's read it.

edit: I finally thought it was over with, but she didn't even get the message. She left for work and her computer was on. She always checks her email. I opened her email inbox up the message automatically got sent to her junk email folder. She never will see it in there.

I added my email to the safe-sender's list and deleted it.

I'm just going to re-send it I guess. Probably not today.

[spacial]

Emmy. I can really understand how you must be feeling now.

[Emmy]

well, one upside to re-sending is I can fix the hyperlinks in it.
I included two, but didn't add them as a hyperlink so she'd have to copy/ paste them into her browser.

And I don't even think my mom knows how to do that..

So it's very possible she wouldn't have even gotten to open them.

So at least I can fix that.

[shortnsweet1004]

That's thinking positively.

Hope it all goes well *hugs*