Welcome to Susan's, man 🙂 I'm pre everything as well, and I know what you mean by struggling not to be in denial. But here you will always be affirmed and supported, it's really a great place to be if you've got some mental walls or self-doubt issues like myself.
Haha, yeah I spend a LOT of time here, mostly reading, but also posting. It's really been helpful, and I admit I feel a sense of community here even if I am a little bit new still. I look forward to seeing you around