Hello everyone..
I had posted this once and it went poof..soooo here we go again..lol
This is the beginning of my new life, I am so ready after years of just being unhappy with who I am and thinking that I was a freak, or a mental case when really there were hundreds, thousands and more out there just like me....
I grew up in a Christan family, I always wore guy stuff but back then you were just called a TomBoy..But as I got older I knew that this body was NOT mine..and the spirit inside was aching to come out, after bad mishaps threw out my teen life, so unhappy I did what my mother wanted and did the whole "Get married and have kids" the only thing that was great about that is I brought two awesome boys in this world, my youngest he is 19 and is all boy...he is a special needs child and sadly I don't get to see him much due to him being 3 hours from me in a group home..but he does seem to adjust fast to it and is VERY happy..My oldest he is all girl lol and when I say that, him and I joke and say that he got my female hormones and I got his male ones.. lol he is 20 and lives with his boyfriend and my song loves to do drag shows.. very proud of him..I look forward to him and Erica meeting, well definitely both..Smiles
ANNNYWAY..I was never happy and I became VERY depressed, dark thoughts clouded my mind. My mother wouldn't even let me stand up with her ( her only child) if I didn't look like a female, shes not talking to me now by the way, and that was just looking like a tomboy lesbian, if she knew I was gettin ready to start this journey she would prob really disown me...but this is for me... I came out about 10 yrs ago, still that feeling inside was not satisfied and after relationship, after failed relationship I knew this was not working for me, after hearing the woman I was dating saying "whats wrong with you, I want a woman not a man, if I wanted to be with a man who dresses and acts like a male I would have stayed straight", OUCH, then in that 10 yrs I meant my best friend, she has stood with me threw it all, she finds nothing wrong with who I am and is excited to begin this new journey along with me as well as my Fiancee, Erica. When I met Erica, she looked right threw the female on the outside and seen the man on the in., she brought me to this site and I have found such support that it really seems like I am home..Thanks babe for bringing me here..
I have thought about this change for a long time and I am really wanting it, and I could use all the information I can..
So here I go, I am ready to start to learn and begin my new life....
