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Growing smaller

Ouch!   

I hope the pain subsides for you.

Chrissy

Welcome aboard Norah!... I hear in your words the attitude and mindset that will propel your journey to wherever you need it to go!... Amazing discoveries patiently await you!

Onward We Go Brave Sister!

Ashley 😀💕🌻

I had a Dermatology appointment at the VA this morning. I had been seeing a non-VA dermatologist for several years. The VA decided I needed to be treated in-house, so this was my first visit with this one. She was awesome and we spent some time going over my medical history. I have had seven Basal Cell carcinomas removed over the years, so I have to get checked every six months.

She didn't see anything suspicious that might need a biopsy. So she just froze a few thousand pre-cancerous spots with liquid nitrogen. I have a large spot on my back that I thought was a mole. It is ugly and black and about 2 inches long by an inch wide. The issue is that it is right under my bra band, so it gets irritated. She said it was a "barnacle", benign and she could freeze it. It may fall off or we can just keep attacking it during each visit. I agreed.

So then I am driving home and it is really getting sore from being frozen, my bra sitting across it, and I am sitting trying to drive without leaning back in the seat. Wowza.

I enter my apartment building and my property manager sees my face (red blotches and blisters all over), and asks if I am okay. I asked her if the Violence Against Women Act applies if the culprit is your doctor. We laughed, but I can see a pain pill in my immediate future.

Good times.

Oh goodness YES! I considered myself "just" a crossdresser for about 10-15 years. I suppose during that time I also used the archaic, transvestite label as well. I know, the horror! I look at things now and understand that I have had some sort of obvious gender variance my entire life, I just called it different things prior to starting to receive actual gender therapy. Now I just see it all as a variant of being transgender. Currently my official can label reads, transexual female. Again, the horror! I know, what is wrong with me? Yes I am transgender, however my specific form of transgender happens to be transexual. I've read my therapist's and doctor's notes for my surgeries and yup, that TS word is everywhere, so you kinda gotta get used to it, imo.

Quote from: Oldandcreaky on Today at 07:57:50 AMWow, she is generous. Is she still working on your face? 

Oh yeah, very much so. 🦁🙄😂

What she's done though is so so smart. She started with my cheeks (which she said were as dense as any she's ever worked on in her 30+ years of doing this. So... you know... score one for me.). And then moved down and is slowly doing my neck as she closes in on my goatee area (even though she continually thins it every session).

The idea is so that on the days that I don't shave in anticipation of a session, it looks "normal". Like right now (since I haven't shaved today and normally wait until Friday to give my face a day), it looks like I'm trying to grow a goatee. That's it.

But as she next finishes under my neck and comes up the chin, eventually it'll look like I'm just trying to grow a mustache and then... poof. She says all this stuff is going much more quickly, so hopefully we'll be somewhere by year's end?  That would be a little over two years.

Oh and in the beginning she would also sometimes bring me over and do a round of laser on me too (never charged me)... first to clear my whole face, but then subsequently only around the lip area, which is where I had mostly my dark hairs. But those seem gone now so we haven't done that in quite a while.

Sarah, thank you for the welcome!! I'll add more, I'm frankly nervous to be putting myself out there like this. Big step, but I'll write more as I find myself for sure!

     Oh gosh thank you for the thoughts!! That's really helpful. I'm always thinking about next major steps that I need to take some time to figure myself out more deeply. It's just something like... hey this makes sense so now what?!?

I appreciate it Allie, this is exactly the advice I need. 

Quote from: REM.1126 on Yesterday at 11:22:32 PMI can be kind, and helpful, and loving towards the people who choose to be around.  I can help the poor.  I can treat others as I would want to be treated.  And, I can try to be a positive force in the lives of those who allow it.

The good stuff. 

Wow, she is generous. Is she still working on your face?