I had a busy week, but I wanted to post something in case anyone was worried.

We went to see my dad again over the weekend. I spent several hours mowing his yard, and an hour or so with a chainsaw. Two very large limbs had broken off during a recent storm, one was big enough to cut up for firewood. Susan helped me clear the debris.

I was able to document even more checks my dad had written, and pinpoint when the financial abuse began. We reported it to law enforcement on Monday. They were in disbelief. Over 500 checks, over $500k, in the last four years. The officer we worked with said she had 'no doubt' they would be making an arrest soon. I'm not sure how much we may be able to recover. There is much more to this story, but I'm keeping that confidential for now.

My dad is doing a little better, but he knows it will be a long time before he can go home. He has no idea we have made a police report. Unless it becomes necessary, we may never tell him. Seeing the depth of what happened would be extremely painful to him, and we want to spare him from that if possible.

Love always -- Jessica Rose

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We all have those days, Katie. There will always be someone younger, prettier, more successful. Don't compare yourself to others, only compare yourself to a previous versions of you.

"Comparison is the thief of joy" attributed to President Theodore Roosevelt and others

Love always -- Jess

Sorry to hear about the wife problems. It, as you know, can be so freeing to dress in the gender we feel best in. The home should always be our safe space and not having to hide, it just takes so much stress out of our lives. Some nights when I'm feeling blue, I will put on a night gown and watch tv. It helps me and puts my GD at bay. I wish the best for you. 

Again no internet ,rang provider and he could see no fault. Tried smart TV and that worked so something to do with my laptop? Did a restart and it took ages before it worked properly but its now settled, might need a clean up but not sure how.
 All behind now, off to cut some more ply panels.

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Wow!  It has been a long time since I updated my blog.

Life is going well.  I love retirement.  I've been staying busy with a number of projects. 

I haven't had any time alone since before Covid to put on my feminine clothing on. My wife doesn't want me to do it at the house, and being retired that's where I am a lot.  I don't really have anywhere else to go and put those clothes on. 

I am thinking of getting rid of most of it.  A lot of it is out of style now anyway.

My coping strategy (which seems to be working reasonably well for me) is to accept and be comfortable knowing I am trans, to focus energy on doing things to help others and make the world a better place, and to try to be the person (in all the ways I can) that I was meant to be. 

I also pray that God will make me the person God wants me to be.  If God wants me to transition, then perhaps that door will open for me. (As many of you know, at the moment that isn't possible for me).

I don't know how that will work for others, but if you cannot transition for whatever reason, it's worth a try.  Maybe a door will open for you.

Wishing all of you the best.

Rachel

@Jessica_K

I am sorry to hear you are having a rough time. Did something specific happen to cause you to worry? Or is it the stress is piling up to make you overthink your concerns? Your concerns are valid either way, but how you handle them may differ.

If it was a specific event, (someone commented, or you noticed something you let slip, etc.) then you can deal with that specific event. But if it is a general concern that when you are stressed you are less cautious, that can add more stress. Just relax. You got this.

Is there some way we can help? We are here for you.

Hugs!

Living stealth for so long, I know one mistake and I am blown so I am so careful. But recently I have been so stressed at work that I feel I am going to explode, I am worried I am letting my guard down.