Quote from: Pema on July 04, 2025, 10:12:26 PMI love that your neighbor put the effort into making that call. And I'm glad you have a neighbor like that.

Me too!

QuoteThank you so much for sharing this. It gives me a boost hearing about good people like that.

I was hoping it would give someone a boost.

I played golf two years ago at Highland Links near Provincetown on Cape Cod.
I doubt anyone in Provincetown cares about your gender.

Quote from: Robbyv213 on Yesterday at 06:34:28 PMYou could try to workout lower body more with specific emphasis on exercises that would build muscle in the hip, glute, thigh area. This is probably the healthiest option but keep in mind that it will only be able to get you so far, also you'd have to eat in surplus calories to build the muscle as well, not to mention prob takes the longest to achieve.

I work out my lower body pretty intensely. I've been on for 8 weeks, and I definitely notice that my lower body is looking more feminine.

This is something I've often thought about. I definitely didn't choose to feel this way. Many of my early posts here were about how much pain I was experiencing from GD. I certainly wasn't choosing to feel that pain. I tried so hard to not transition, but, the constant feeling of wrongness and being uncomfortable in my own body was too much. I made the decision to get hormones, which I've been on for 8 weeks, and I'm the happiest I've ever felt. 

Wednesday I ate a quesadilla.

Replacing the dynamo on my '57 SCI last week, discovered broken engine mount.  Had to leave it behind for the big regional car show last weekend.  So now have to pull the valence, radiator shroud and radiator to lift the engine to replace.  Ordered the mount form Flying Spares.  Got here yesterday, plus tariff <argh>.  Must do the mount before install the new "dynator."

Where ever we go, we people watch   Enjoying families and young folks the most.

On the plus side I have made progress on my efforts to try to lose weight and size.

I am now sitting in the high 180s consistently every day now for a few weeks for my body weight and this is at the end of the day. My upper body has definitely decreased some. Bust was 48 inches and is now 45.5 inches. My waist and hips have maybe fluctuated a half inch or so but not by much yet. The biggest change in difference I've noticed so far is that my weight is slowly but steadily going down and my upper body torso size is slowly getting smaller. I'm noticing that my shirts are getting baggier. So even if I am having breast growth I'm also losing some muscle Mass in my chest and back to allow the smaller measurements and my shirts/tank tops etc to fit more loosely.

So that's my positive update. I'm moving in the right direction or I guess I should say I'm moving in the direction that I'm trying to go. Lol

Yorkshire Pudding with sausages.  Its been a coons age since I made it.

So about a month ago my wife asked me if one of her friends who's leaving her husband can stay with us for a little bit till she gets on her feet she has two very young kids no more than 3 years old. I honestly did not want to invite that drama into our lives but how could you not help.

So the end of May we let her move in with her two kids and since then it's been nothing but drama and extreme negativity in the house. I don't know how to describe it but the aura is just so much and so overwhelming that it seems like everyone is just walking on eggshells and trying to tiptoe around everyone else because everyone just seems constantly aggravated for no reason.

And finally last week things got to a boiling point and my wife and her got into it which ended with my wife asking her to leave ( and that's putting it nicely)

And of course obviously I'm going to side with my wife and try to support her the best way I can but at the same time try to maintain the peace as much as possible because that's just who I am.

Long story short her so-called friend is being extremely nasty on social media and through text towards my wife and because I'm trying to maintain the peace because I feel it's something I need to do for me since I'm trying to always react with kindness as much as possible my wife now feels like I'm choosing her friend over her which is causing a whole lot more drama between me and my wife more than what's already going on between us.

Anyways now my wife is going to visit her dad for the weekend because it's his birthday and I'm staying home to watch the dogs since we no longer have anyone staying with us that can dog watch and house watch.
And somehow all of this has become my fault.

My fault for all of this even though I had said I didn't want to let her move in with us that it would only cause issues and sure enough here it is 6 weeks later causing issues and I'm to blame for everything as usual...

Anyways that was a really round about way to say that I have the weekend open. So I'm going to go to the wig shop and finally use my VA stipend to get a wig which hopefully is still going to be able to use since it was already approved last year/early this year. And potentially try to attend the local gender identity transgender support group here in Phoenix if time allows for me to do both in the same day. It might be cutting it close but it should be doable.


I'm definitely looking forward to finally getting this wig appointment out of the way. I think no matter what I need to settle on a wig this time since I'm not sure how much longer that VA stipend will be good for if I continue to sit on it.

About 2 or 3 weeks ago I had asked my wife if she would want to come to the wig appointment with me and what not. She had mixed feelings about it initially but told me to ask her again at a later time. And I recently asked her just this past week if she would still want to go with me or not and she said that it might be best for me to just do it while she's away this weekend. That right now this is something she can't do.

Which is okay but makes me sad. Makes me wonder if she's just putting up her walls and slowly pushing me away especially with all the tension that has been super high over this last 6 weeks with her friend and two kids living in our guest room for free by the way. I feel like we're just slowly going to drift apart. Especially now that we both have came to the same conclusion that we don't feel we can provide what the other person needs in a relationship in all aspects for them to be happy and healthy without the other person feeling like they're losing a part of themselves or holding back from who they truly are.

We have a wedding to go to in November for our friends in upstate New York which coincidentally also falls on the same weekend as our wedding anniversary and we've been postponing on buying airfare since we're not sure what the situation is going to be in terms of who's going to be able to watch our dogs and houses for us while we're away for the two or three days. And I have a uneasy feeling that I will end up not being able to attend and will most likely end up having to stay back while my wife goes to attend her friend's wedding in New York in November. I have a feeling that even if she won't admit it that it will be because of me taking steps to move forward in my transition. I have a feeling that I will most likely end up in that guest bedroom sooner than later and that when our lease is up for this house that we're renting we will most likely be going our own ways and obviously file whatever legal documentation that we're going to need to do in order to separate and or divorce.

This is just my concern and feelings with everything going on and all the high tension especially surrounding me transitioning. Hopefully that's not the case. Hopefully we will find a way to work through it and find a Happy middle ground somewhere but realistically i don't see a future where were able to stay together and both of us be happy.

Whether or not we can continue living together in the same house because it'll be financially beneficial and it will help us both with the regular day-to-day living, but at some point I know she's going to want me to not be around her daughter after a certain point in transition since as of right now she doesn't want anyone to know about it and doesn't want her daughter to be exposed to the fact that her stepdad is transgender and is taking action to move forward in order to live the rest of her life as a woman...

So yeah sorry that this post is kind of been all over the place these are just a lot of the things I'm dealing with and thoughts and concerns I've been having and unfortunately especially with the last 6 weeks of super high tension I'm not able to really talk about these things with my wife right now.